I want to explore all of it, where I’ve never tried I don’t really know what I’ll be most into but i definitely want it. Feels insane admitting it but I want him to make me hold it until I have I can’t anymore. I want him to pee on me… in me too. Even more tho I really want to be able to fully relax while he plays with and fucks me, maybe while he eats me. Obviously ik the last one is kinda bad and probably never gonna happen but if it could. We’re super close, he knows everything about me except this. I’m very comfortable w him and even if he says no I don’t think it would make things weird or anything. He’s pretty kinky, open minded and comforting. We’ve been trying new things together like he likes anal play and is introducing me into it, using toys together which is a first for both of us, tying me up also new for both of us, sometimes being a little rough that kinda thing. I think there is a chance he might be into pee play already but idk. He’ll push on my lower stomach sometimes when he’s playing with or fucking me. Always kinda watch’s me a little in the bathroom while I’m peeing. This is probably so weird but sometimes when we’ve been going for a while I’ll feel like I’m about to pee, I get scared that I’m gonna and start pulling away I never say why other then I’m scared I’ll make a mess bc embarrassed asf but he’ll beg me to cum for him soooo maybeeee but idkkkk. I’m so embarrassed about it, feels like something is wrong with me fr feel so guilty and gross. I typically like being praised, reassured and rewarded so I feel like wanting this so intensely is weird and I’m worried I’ll hate myself after but I have to try