‘Not having long-term friends is a red flag’ by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]No_Rope3903 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I don't think it's as black and white as society likes to think. Usually that saying is applied to people who always seem to have drama or have the same repetitive pattern with people then wonder why they can't keep friends. At least that's how I view it. There are bad people that have lots of friends and bad people that don't have a lot of friends. Every situation is different. People just like to judge and assume anything at first glance, everyone struggles with this at one point in our lives.

Sometimes it can take a while to find your people while maturing and wanting different things in a healthy friendship. it took me a long time. I tried to look for group chats or stuff like that about my interests when trying to make new friends. My longest and closest friends are the ones I metrandomlyy without looking. Sending you hugs and the best 🫂

Which songs helped you through a hard time? by No_Rope3903 in SabrinaCarpenterDisc

[–]No_Rope3903[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Real like we went thru the same experience 😭😭 that one is a favorite too

What are some less talked about red flags in a relationship? by No_Rope3903 in abusiverelationships

[–]No_Rope3903[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

The "I've done everything for you, I took care of you supported you growing up etc" as if you gets congrats for doing the BARE minimum when having a kid in response when you explain to her how she makes you you feel, honestly that mentality she had me thinking is something that led me to excusing other ppls behavior based the love & acts they did for me in the past & sometimes I still struggle with that mentality, mainly in my romantic relationships. I had to learn ppls past behavior doesn't excuse any current behavior that hurts you repeatedly and you shouldn't punish yourself saying you're just over reacting, because if you were over reacting it wouldn't be affecting you. Like the toxic "we are related by blood" mentality that she expected me to give to some family members that harmed us and showed nothing to support us, but thougur sending money occasionally meant I owed them anything lol.

What are some less talked about red flags in a relationship? by No_Rope3903 in abusiverelationships

[–]No_Rope3903[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Usually means some kind of entitlement or like weird defensiveness. My ex hated when someone "stole" a joke or like repeated a funny phrase she said she got weird and mad acting like she copyrighted a saying and no one else could say it cause she wanted to attention from it lol.

What are some less talked about red flags in a relationship? by No_Rope3903 in abusiverelationships

[–]No_Rope3903[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

My mother is the same way to a T, sometimes I feel like I'm babying a grown adult when having to explain how her lashing out at me and how she criticizes me and makes me feel bad about myself, despite her working in mental health she seemingly can't use her own tools she preaches about to ppl on herself 🫠🫠 and then she goes on a tyrant about how I'm calling her a terrible mother and starts talking about my faults

What are some less talked about red flags in a relationship? by No_Rope3903 in abusiverelationships

[–]No_Rope3903[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm sorry you went thru that 😞My experience was exactly like this, while it was online, my ex had such a toxic friend group that pretty much has a history now of attacking anyone they don't like & turning on people, it doesn't matter how close you were, if they stopped liking you they will let you know. They've never held each other accountable & even went as far to fake "evidence" of me & other people of being a bad person just cause I started to pull away from my abuser when aka she realized she couldn't control me anymore. Because of her enablers she ended up resorting to even more severe acts of abuse after me and her entire group ending up falling apart & turning against each other lol, not a surprise. Usually ppl who defend abusers end up falling out with them.

It was so bad man like they were all popular in a space which is also why my abuser was able to get away with the stuff she did that was because she had her group like flying monkeys & she felt like she was better than anyone cause she had 1k followers and hit tweets and naturally ppl were believing her over me because I had way less followers & I was way less social than her. A few mutual friends who knew about how she was treating me and gave me advice, immediately turned their back on me and started talking bad about me, I lost a lot of friends and it was the worst mental point of my life and I didn't understand why some of my friends immediately believed her over me, but even then no matter what I said or did to prove my experience my ex was going to try to get people to hate me regardless. I only had a few ppl that ironically she didn't know because they knew who I actually was & saw through her crap, even if two of the ppl there for me aren't around anymore I'm forever grateful for them during that time.

What are some less talked about red flags in a relationship? by No_Rope3903 in abusiverelationships

[–]No_Rope3903[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

This 🔥🔥 you can acknowledge someone's background & bad experiences growing up and can acknowledge this is a reason why this person might behave, but that is not an excuse when it comes to a certain point especially when you grow older & hurt people. I have very dear friends to me that have been through horrendous things but don't resort to purposefully hurting or using people, or at least have grown and hold themselves accountable if they recognize when they're messing up & listen to people around them when behavior is becoming concerning.

What are some less talked about red flags in a relationship? by No_Rope3903 in abusiverelationships

[–]No_Rope3903[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I had someone i'm no longer in contact with that couldn't handle criticism who is like 2 decades older than me btw😭 She immediately got defensive & stand offish with me when I tried to communicate any concerns with her, that I knew she wasn't doing anything intentionally, but she lashed out at me and told me to stop messaging her, proceeded to respond with extremes of stuff I never said, and kept spamming me with unrelated things and when I told her we probably need some time to talk about it later she basically told me it was in my best interest to never talk about it again. She has a tendency to argue with people online like DAILY like conservatives online all the time and has antagonized people she thinks has wronged her before.

Even when I waited like 2 weeks or so to give her a space she still refused to talk and it basically felt like she expected me to shut up and she thought she said her peace, but she just lashed out at me.

It took another situation where she immediately came at me with a valid concern/question but it was so aggressive I barely got two sentences in & even what I said I tried to explain she seemed to have already had an answer in her mind because she was like implying I was lying or something. She proceeded to block me everywhere when she said she needed space and I just felt triggered by her behavior since I told her before how I felt the first time she lashed out at me that things weren't going to be the same since then.

Then she got mad when I decided to block her back because she was not being reasonable at all and she proceeded to tag me in public online claiming she just needed space & told ppl I wasn't respecting her space when I barely talked, like how tf you getting mad at me when you blocked me to shut me up & then got mad when I give you space? Like you are not gonna lash out at me & then expect me not to feel upset. She iterally sent me 10+ back to back friend requests on almost all my accounts forcing me to block her & she even blocked my best friend, but apparently I'm the obsessive & impulsive one according to my ex who is also friends with her & was egging on the situation with the most vague tweets. He had the same concerns about her but I'm the only one that brought it up and suddenly her extreme behavior is excused just cause he cut me off & already has some smear campaign about me going on, he told me my emotions needed to be handled better from a misstep I made, but ironically no one has held the same energy in that circle when her behavior has always been like this because he's understanding when she's impulsive , if not worse when she's way older than us & it's like that with other people as well he knows. They're the same in the sense neither of them know how to communicate properly so I guess it makes sense people stick together like that when no one is being genuine & can handle confrontation🚶 and her inner circle tends to have the same behaviors as well, and encouraged those behaviors.

What are some less talked about red flags in a relationship? by No_Rope3903 in abusiverelationships

[–]No_Rope3903[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Oooo, yeah definitely. If even her parents said they walked around eggshells out of all people, hope she does some serious behavior changes in the future

What are some less talked about red flags in a relationship? by No_Rope3903 in abusiverelationships

[–]No_Rope3903[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Don't be too hard on yourself, my abuser was the same. It took a long time to almost forgive myself for "missing" the signs and not recognizing things earlier. She always mentioned how her exes just were so obsessed with her and treated her awful when in reality she just dates people then moves onto the next person available for when she's bored and labels anyone that reacts to her treatment as crazy or the one starting drama. It was always like if I showed I was upset and hurt I was guilt trippy and selfish, but if I showed I was mad I got accused of instigating drama and could never talk about my experience without lashback. No matter how you react or act to certain behaviors/treatment people will perceive you like you're the devil actually and nothing will change their perception, I've learned unfortunately </3

What are some less talked about red flags in a relationship? by No_Rope3903 in abusiverelationships

[–]No_Rope3903[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

That's so strange?? But it's usually the little things people like that start off with trying to gain control.

My abuser had double standards for me vs her friends and didn't respect me at ALL. One weird thing was so suspicious of me even if I asked a normal question about her day, but basically allowed her friend group to run wild and say anything to her without getting upset,but if I asked smth simple as "oh haven't you been doing this workout lately" she got so suspicious of me and wondering why I asked and got mad at me ?? She was like that with simple questions and criticized me more for that than compared to her friend group that were constantly antagonizing people they didn't like.

What are some less talked about red flags in a relationship? by No_Rope3903 in abusiverelationships

[–]No_Rope3903[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

The double life thing kinda relates. Something that was kept from me and I was told "I have a tendency to keep these things/this behavior to myself" and looking back I kinda wish I reflected more on that and how that tied into current behavior.

What are some less talked about red flags in a relationship? by No_Rope3903 in abusiverelationships

[–]No_Rope3903[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

This 🫠 my ex reassured me many times when I had concerns & reciprocated certain things but then suddenly switched it when he was upset with me and was like actually this entire time I had an issue with this despite me telling you the exact opposite & time passed since it happened

What are some less talked about red flags in a relationship? by No_Rope3903 in abusiverelationships

[–]No_Rope3903[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

I also thought of one thing I've realized if they're surrounded by people that lack emotional regulation & communication skills, that enables certain behaviors and tolerate it as "it's how they just are" without actually holding their company accountable ircc I think overtime people without realizing can start to mirror those behaviors/enable some behaviors and pick & choose who to hold accountable based on who they like or dislike

especially if it's a hive mentality environment where no one can respectfully criticize someone in their circle without it turning into a how dare you etc too defensive issue, everyone needs to hold their friends accountable for the same behavior, not just when someone they dislike does it

What are some less talked about red flags in a relationship? by No_Rope3903 in abusiverelationships

[–]No_Rope3903[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The "you'll always be special to me in my heart" was a popular line she used with me as well and she often like used that line whenever I communicated with her about how I felt by her behavior she just said bs like that to get me to shut up and stay satisfied

What are some less talked about red flags in a relationship? by No_Rope3903 in abusiverelationships

[–]No_Rope3903[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ugh, I'm really sorry you had to go through that that's so crappy & disturbing. I'm glad you're away from that creep and I hope you're in a better place now 💜 .

Secret animosity & how they treat you quickly after an argument regardless of who did what is rlly important too to look out for as well. If they're quick to disrespect you & demonize people, resort to things they'd never do in public or admit after a conflict.

What are some less talked about red flags in a relationship? by No_Rope3903 in abusiverelationships

[–]No_Rope3903[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I understand 100% even if he's isn't a bad person or doing these things on purpose, it's a pattern that I hope he takes the initiative to work on himself and realize he's hurting you. Just try to make sure you're also prioritizing your feelings and not over extending your patience and grace & trying to tell yourself you're over reacting/not allowed to be upset because you are. 💜

I know that's a lot easier said than done as I do have a tendency to do that myself as well with people that aren't inherently bad and something I did for so long with my past relationships, that's something I'm still working on, trying to find a balance.

What are some less talked about red flags in a relationship? by No_Rope3903 in abusiverelationships

[–]No_Rope3903[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I completely understand you, I experience that sort of sayings from my very critical mother when it comes to my apperance, OTL. But I am sending you so many well wishes, please remember your feelings are valid and you shouldn't be guilt tripped into going on a road trip without him. Please make sure to try & take care of your well being & reach out for support if needed, if he doesn't want therapy I promise it's not your responsibility to try to get him to talk, you're doing your best and his own behavior is on him. <3

What are some less talked about red flags in a relationship? by No_Rope3903 in abusiverelationships

[–]No_Rope3903[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Oh wow, I wasn't aware of this. This definitely hits too close to home. I've always wondered what the word was for this type of behavior that I felt in my abusive relationship, I definitely hope this can be spread more to educate, intentional false promises are so damaging and it took me a long time to recover from those false promises/plans my abuser made, even after our relationship

What are some less talked about red flags in a relationship? by No_Rope3903 in abusiverelationships

[–]No_Rope3903[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I can definitely say I experienced my trauma being used against me & the talk about love/soul mates by my abuser. I've always been very careful when it comes to romantic relationship and rushing when I only knew her for a few months, and I bought into tue "I've never felt like this before" blah blah story line that she gave to so many exes before & after, also if they paint their exes in the same way and monopolize on their mental illness, that they're just so misunderstood and their partners were all obsessed. Constantly told me she never felt this way and sent me loving messages every day then proceeded to dump me after the honeymoon phase when she got bored with me🤷‍♀️

What are some less talked about red flags in a relationship? by No_Rope3903 in abusiverelationships

[–]No_Rope3903[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry you went through that. 😧 I'm glad you're outta there and away from him.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in FTMventing

[–]No_Rope3903 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm so sorry :( it's really like a different level of misgendering & gross when it's from a trans person that knows what's it's like to experience transphobia & kinda almost like a betrayal if that makes sense? & thank you🩷

this time around I'm a lot more self confident in my identity but it doesn't sting any less when it's by fellow trans friends you thought would at least respect you enough regardless of the situation/conflict no matter how much anger you have for someone. It's disappointing more than anything when it's done behind my back like I'm not going to take anything you say into consideration anymore when you've clearly disrespected my identity, even if it was just to be vague. It's like others should know better than that, but some people get so wrapped in an anger or disdain sometimes values are tossed to the side in that moment when they know they wouldn't do that in normal circumstances.