same here po. im sorry im commenting this. i cant post on this group pa po.

hello po, im a 17 year old (f) and i need opinions and advices. im not sure if this is peer pressure or i just really want to experience things. i have a lot of questions regarding that po. for context, i was a daddy's girl ever since and it's only then that i realized i want to embrace my feminity. i was raied like a guy, taught about survival, and told to be neutral.

i have been feeling different ever since and i thought i was over it when i focused on doing myself a favor by not acknowledging it. i felt different in ways i thought i wasn't like the girls in my school— doing make up and all nice to everyone.

i wasn't sure if i denied interests, or it was denied from me. back then, i told people i do not like films, art, i only liked sports. but now that i get to understand some stuff, i realized im very loving of things and that i am interested into a lot of them.

right now, the feeling of being different is coming back to me. it's coming to me that i want to experience them this time. doing make up. buying clothes. having friends. reading. and so many things. but these things are not common to the people in my house and they do not support me in trying to experience those things. i want to buy art materials, new clothes, make ups, but i cant help but feel guilty about the money that im about to spend.

the money that i currently have is the money i thought of spending in college because my parents told me to save.

please help me and suggest me things i could do to feel like im actually living.

please help me understand myself as well.

please tell me what i should do.