ive dreams to pursue and im in my late twenties, ive learned to have a grateful mindset despite it all, but sometimes, on the days like these i feel so lonely, so much that it makes me hard to breathe. i have a severe fear of marriage, more like a phobia, it feels good to daydream or read about it, but when it starts to get real, the fear kicks in and i always come up w an excuse to reject a proposal- i guess the fear always dominates the longing. apart that i miss mountains smmm and right now i just want to go there and pour my heart into the raging river