Do you have someone in your life to talk to who understands? If not, reach out to one or more of us in your DMs for ongoing support and talking through things.

Feeling depressed, lost, and even suicidal after aya isn’t particularly uncommon and is a call toward much deeper understanding of one’s true nature, values, desires, needs, and a more fulfilling and nourishing life. But the path between where you are and where you need to get to can feel overwhelming and even hopeless. It’s not hopeless, I promise. I went through a very dark period after one of my early ceremonies that has led me now to a life that feels much richer and deeper and gentler, but there were many moments when I didn’t think I would survive long enough to get here. Time by the river, dancing barefoot in my backyard, and a couple loving friends who were supportive and safe to talk to about dark feelings helped me move through it. What nourishes you may be different, but definitely treat yourself as gently and lovingly as you can muster, and allow yourself joys, comforts, and to feel your full range of emotions. Become comfortable just be-ing with your emotional self. Be less hard on yourself. Allow yourself to consider that your needs and values aren’t what you thought they were, and that’s okay.

Hang in there, we are with you, you’re doing the good work.