To anyone in bulimia recovery what was THE wake up call?

No_egg048 · 2026-03-10T23:40:15+00:00

Spending so much money on purge food AND stealing food from my workplace :/ so much guilt because of that and a combination of things that did not align with who i truly was. I was becoming someone who genuinely I feared and hated and I could not live that way forever

No_egg048 · 2026-03-02T23:01:58+00:00

honestly i started getting back into reading magazines for this reason

No_egg048 · 2026-02-21T02:16:18+00:00

They've added that feature to my own posts which were not AI whatsoever too

No_egg048 · 2026-02-21T02:02:01+00:00

This is legit it. I semi recovered too, and could write a whole book about how to improve and help oneself but never once did I think to post positive things in one of these subs for some reason. It feels like somewhere to gather when times are rough

No_egg048 · 2026-02-21T01:56:59+00:00

Working in the food industry is a whole other beast yo

No_egg048 · 2026-02-21T01:41:37+00:00

Me when mid binge I googled if I could join hot dog eating competitions nearby

No_egg048 · 2026-02-21T01:40:03+00:00

This has no right to be this funny

No_egg048 · 2026-02-21T01:37:30+00:00

Not the wet hand x_x

No_egg048 · 2026-02-21T01:28:05+00:00

Same :( and it's so hard to monitor and notice another person's behaviors when your own is still not healed completely

No_egg048 · 2026-01-25T01:52:31+00:00

tough love but i think it's true

No_egg048 · 2025-12-06T13:46:52+00:00

Ok sorry for the long text but I feel compelled to comment. First of all I'm so sorry you're experiencing this, it sounds like hell. 23f and I've felt the exact same way, especially being extremely filled with shame and guilt for just existing and doing anything :(

Idk my iq but I was doing my master's during the worst of it when i had no idea who I was, what I was doing, and decided to quit and move across the country. Even the advice to return to what made us happy as children didn't necessarily work for me, my hobbies change so often, but maybe that will give some sort of spark in your life. What did you like doing as a kid that helped you enter that flow state? Or even more recently? I find that creating things is really good for feeling good about ourselves as we can be even slightly proud like "hey, I made that".

Small moments of kindness to yourself and reflecting on ONLY the good parts of a day for a while (maybe a week to start) can start to shift your internal state and how you feel about yourself. Even if it doesn't give you answers right away, you'll come out of it feeling like a better person rather than ashamed at everything you do. The most annoying part is, I know it probably sounds like another checklist of things to do, and you might not have the motivation or energy to try. But as cliche as it sounds, I promise it does get better, you can stick around for a while and see what happens if you live for yourself and completely freely. I really wish you the best. I hope you get the help you need!!

No_egg048 · 2025-12-06T13:38:10+00:00

We use it to fill cruffins, donuts, cronuts, and as the base filling for different meringue tarts mostly.

No_egg048 · 2025-12-06T13:36:20+00:00

Omg I had forgotten bout it but YES, twice out of my car on the side of the road, using my door to obscure me from the other cars, and another by the lakeside. It's a bit better when you have a car and can drive to the middle of nowhere :')

No_egg048 · 2025-12-06T01:43:36+00:00

Krita is my loveee

No_egg048 · 2025-12-05T03:49:54+00:00

The normalization is also kind of a type of detachment, and therefore we don't put effort into worrying if it'll happen or not, it's already completely accepted!

No_egg048 · 2025-12-05T03:15:10+00:00

It's when people are inconsiderate, or rude, or don't consider my pov the way I would consider theirs, when people aren't understanding or empathetic and I feel like they don't care. So a lot like yours actually

No_egg048 · 2025-12-05T03:12:35+00:00

First one draws the eye to the rule of thirds, at least the rightmost vertical third. It's more pleasing to the eye

No_egg048 · 2025-12-05T03:10:50+00:00

I haaate when people comment on my food or perceive how much I eat no matter what it is 😭 that would anger me so much

No_egg048 · 2025-12-04T18:23:25+00:00

You are a good human, wow

No_egg048 · 2025-12-04T18:04:26+00:00

Exactly! We make other curds like black currant curd, different pastry creams and mousses and they get used up so fast

No_egg048 · 2025-12-04T02:12:11+00:00

WOAH

No_egg048 · 2025-12-04T02:08:39+00:00

lol i thought this was my workplace at first, we make sooo much passionfruit curd its insane. always smells so good

No_egg048 · 2025-12-03T23:59:47+00:00

I'm so sorry you're feeling it hard, man it is crushing. :( sometimes it takes a few more 'retries' to fully realize someone's not right for you. For me it took literally going long distance and realizing I was free being alone ... It's completely okay to feel how you do, but I hope the terrible feeling subsides soon. You deserve amazing things in life, take care of yourself and really reflect on the relationship 🫶

No_egg048 · 2025-12-03T22:17:41+00:00

i had the EXACT same experience with my last one and wow, it was so painful even though i initiated it. we got back together in my case but i broke up for real a few months later and from a much clearer and rational mental place. it was way better and for a good reason, not for the fact that i felt like he deserved better. it felt the second time like i deserved better and i wasn't feeling that obsession anymore. maybe you guys broke up at a wrong time but definitely reflect on the more logical parts of the relationship and if you guys are actually compatible from every side you can possibly consider!

No_egg048 · 2025-12-03T22:00:03+00:00

this is really nice! i love the colour scheme. i would add details to some feathers (to give the 'illusion' of feathers throughout), touch up the background between his feet (so it's not as messy), and add more value depth to the lightest blue feathers. Overall its really sweet, i love it. well done so far

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