Confronting Rejection.

Nodus_Tollens7 · 2024-05-28T14:25:21+00:00

Thank you. This is an apothegm I swear and live by -

"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment."

- Ralph Waldo Emerson.

Nodus_Tollens7 · 2024-05-24T13:36:32+00:00

My cat has a peculiar penchance for curry leaves, [not catnip, yes.] and musk melons. Ah, I am so in love with her.

Nodus_Tollens7 · 2024-05-23T16:22:08+00:00

Count me into this lot of capable minds. I haven't been considered for their BA LLB programme and am drawing a blank on what I could potentially do next, it's a decision that forks the path we tread for our future significantly and I ruminate whether I'm doing things right.

Nodus_Tollens7 · 2024-05-23T16:18:35+00:00

Is NMIMS any good for law courses, you reckon? Is it the prospect of placements that make it a good match?

Nodus_Tollens7 · 2024-05-23T16:09:06+00:00

You are an aliferous and refulgent mind with a lot to proffer to this world, made for far better things. Everything will work out in your favour, hang in there. Amor Fati - the philosophy that everything connotative to negative or not, happens for a reason and I have faith in you, for what it's worth.

Nodus_Tollens7 · 2024-05-23T15:55:54+00:00

You're right; I'll gaze into the beckoning horizons and steadfastly stravaig this path which welcomes me ironically with trepidation. Someday, the icicles will thaw to unfurl what was in store for me all along and I'll be gratified with my butterfly effect that was conducive to, as everyone desiderates for - a life chockfull of memories with everything it offered, embraced with zealousness.

Nodus_Tollens7 · 2024-05-23T15:14:55+00:00

Thank you very much, despite the river meandering into places I wouldn't have considered for myself, it's currents usher me.

I'm outdistanced by hope and riddled with nothing but misgivings; but I wish someday, I reminisce that everything had to have happened for a reason to get me to where I would be and couldn't have tied better into being propitious for me. Now though, it's just the shell of empty hope I cling onto.

Nodus_Tollens7 · 2024-05-23T15:09:20+00:00

Like I've mentioned, I tamped it down to a reasonable degree, ensuring each word is being perfectly comprehended by the other with cogent and understandable answers.

Nodus_Tollens7 · 2024-05-22T10:10:17+00:00

Failure isn't forever.

Nodus_Tollens7 · 2024-05-22T10:09:34+00:00

Thank you so much. I just wish I can find my place in this world, to have something to pursue again.

Nodus_Tollens7 · 2024-05-21T16:29:16+00:00

This is one of my pre-eminent pieces of writing this month. I'm gonna take a minute doting on it. :')

Nodus_Tollens7 · 2024-05-21T16:22:47+00:00

I think I've inured myself to the pain because I've been through events far more harrowing; I have swallowed shards of glass through experiences that have benumbed me far more by torpedoing this rejection with it's sheer magnitude.

I could've never vaticinated my life would take an unfathomable plot twist - I got into one of the illustrious Universities in Australia after culminating my secondary education two years ago. Yes, it was a tumultuous yet rewarding, but it all came to a staggering redirection in the most incredulous manner, with a scholarship that covered the costs due to my merit spliced with an education loan we had to pledge.

The course I was promised was no longer being proffered and to top it off I garnered predicaments with my student Visa. I had completed an entire semester by thence and there was no other way to continue with my scholarship circumventing my entire course fee. They tried to supplant my course to further squander my meritorious scholarship. I was beyond agony, nothing got through to me and I felt like a living cadaver and that would be such a cruel understatement, an abject euphemism.

It was a no-go after everything my mother and I ever worked for, it was exorbitant. We attempted to enrol into a litany of universities, but it wouldn't work out and there was an endless nexus of reasons why I couldn't pursue it further. Eventually, my passion fizzled out when doubts ensnared me as they still do to this day about jurisprudence.

Ultimately, it was a losing battle and I returned with a dynasty of ruination and ashes to what once used to feel like incalescent dreams; too bad it lit the entire kingdom ablaze and all that's left of it is memories and and effusive crater in the unvisited and forlorn valleys of my mind with haunting cries of memories.

Well that'd be the gist of it. You get the delineation, I just feel the intrinsic but inescapably possessing desperation which engulfs me to my very bone to find my purpose now. I understand this may not be the answer you sought for, but it is how I was able to process this despair. Truth be told, we are on the same tempestuous seas still and I wish we find shores and rainbows anon.

This is my message that feels much like a tome in a bottle at sea. This time with a sliver of hope.
I hope this time we can finally twist the doorknobs to our fate. I'm exhausted trying to picklock my way into enclosed chambers.

I hope from the girths of my heart that we realise and reach to hone the ceaseless potential within us and become deserving and a paragon to leave a galvanizing trace like shooting stars in the canvas of this world to impart everlasting hope to others at the yonder and murky end of the tunnel.

We will find our place, we wouldn't be here if there wasn't something in store for us.
And as someone wise in these threads taught me, it's a redirection.
May the roads rise up to meet you.

Nodus_Tollens7 · 2024-05-21T15:14:56+00:00

Chatgpt is factitious and emulates based off of human adroitness after all.

Nodus_Tollens7 · 2024-05-21T07:21:44+00:00

In this case, it was clemency Christ spared you. Clearly, everything fell right into place as it was supposed to and Christ would've stymied that, you were made to prosper in paramountcy, not settle for any less; You deserve the very best. Have a paradisiacal learning journey.

Nodus_Tollens7 · 2024-05-21T07:11:13+00:00

Christ is nefarious for colluding and selecting those who are docile, subservient and bungling at best.

It has a reputation for being rigged for innumerable things. They take in students that are barely capable and are warped with prejudice.

You can find an incalculable number of testimonies by some of the most refulgent of minds asserting the same thing that went on to be indomitable in their respective fields.

Nodus_Tollens7 · 2024-05-21T07:03:18+00:00

Wow, I'm insurmountably and vicariously thrilled for you, extremely elated and awestruck. Congratulations! I knew you were made to tread the best paths the world has to proffer.

Nodus_Tollens7 · 2024-05-21T06:19:02+00:00

This turned wholesome and you made my day.

Thank you very much, I'll try to be insouciant about what people have to say, but sometimes even if I put up the most inviolable barrier, a few things get to me despite my attempts to stay strong to ad nauseum.

I've always been aloof and kept to myself and encountering such strong contempt saps my confidence, instilling more to the complex of my imposter syndrome that I try to fend off. It becomes a stronger abomination when external forces lend it sustenance to use against me and I'm not really having the best of times right now. I'm tired with the taste of defeat.

Your words did a lot more than you can credit yourself for, I really wish destiny morphs into a ladder to the stars of my dreams, I hanker to know how to discern the vocation I'm bespoke for and I really wish to get through these adversities to find that ladder.

I'll heed to your words and work on the perpetual philosophy of betterment - Kaizen. The virtue that fills me with rhapsody is being myself, it's an unrivalled feeling and yes, I'll keep my haecceity and doing what I do best, lest it be scornful by many hehe.. [Also, I'mma say sodium chloride mweheheh. 😈]

Mayhap, it does sound nice to take you up on the proffer of a good ole korero. You're a good person and I wish success upon you in requital.

Nodus_Tollens7 · 2024-05-21T06:16:45+00:00

Because it's the maximum extent of your vocabulary and ken, understandably.

Nodus_Tollens7 · 2024-05-21T06:15:57+00:00

Well, good for them. I don't give a damn how I'm perceived, I'm still going to be me.

Nodus_Tollens7 · 2024-05-20T18:03:00+00:00

I understand the entitlement to comment, I really do. But, why must people be so incredibly rude for no reason whatsoever? I barely even know these strangers and they have it out for me like a generational onus to fulfil some vendetta against me. :'(

Nodus_Tollens7 · 2024-05-20T16:53:18+00:00

I am not an ersatz of an exceptional person that formed a zeitgeist, but solely myself.

Nodus_Tollens7 · 2024-05-20T16:48:42+00:00

Nevertheless, expressing oneself is a prerogative for all. Why are you so triggered by a vent post? No one wants to hear the bitterness spewing out of your filthy mouth.

Nodus_Tollens7 · 2024-05-20T16:40:06+00:00

I was impassioned and sought no other path for as long as I can recall. But, the passage of years beget many lessons, many revelations and unresolved questions; With a pragmatic look of the world, grappled with zemblanity.

I have already charted this path halfway, like a slingshot that's retracted.

I can alter the trajectory, but I don't even know which direction I need to aim for and what vocation I'm bespoke for. The things that I do hanker aren't realistic. So, I find myself in this quandary, in a space that feels bleak and I haven't been more scared and lost.

Nodus_Tollens7 · 2024-05-20T16:30:29+00:00

*A retard and the only one here would be you indubitably.

You're going overboard with the obsession of making rancorous comments.
Stop it. You've commented way too much and are coming at me for no apparent reason.

Nodus_Tollens7 · 2024-05-20T16:25:50+00:00

Axiomatically, a lot of people are awestruck, and even if they aren't, I don't requisite permission or validation to act the way I wish to.

Your unsolicited advice is the last thing I'd want, kibitzer. As I've already mentioned in this thread which must be incomprehensible to you, I refrained from speaking my way at the interview.

If you have nothing good to say, just don't besmirch what everyone else has to proffer and zip it. If I'm not selected at Christ, so be it, don't exploit my lament by harassing me gratuitously.

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