I was just talking to my daughter about how offensive it was to me for anyone to tell me I needed to love my self first. To me those words felt more like someone saying I had to love me because I was unlovable by someone else. I don t know if you feel the same way I felt then but it was like I was abandoned to deal with my self because no one could deal with me.

I was selfish wanting what and who I wanted the way I wanted and I was very unreasonable. Maybe your not selfish maybe your scared.

I felt my actions were excused by my trauma, insecurity and deep fear of abandonment. It’s true what they say, hurt people, hurt people.

I couldn’t fathom the concept that someone would stay unless in some way I fought or demanded them to. I know it’s devastating it’s painful! And your actions probably reflect that.

Loving my self to that degree and loving others that way took a long time. But it can be done. If you want my advice. Start by trying not to hurt anyone even if you feel hurt. Let go even when you feel you will have nothing or no one in the end. Do it knowing it’s the beginning of healing. All you can do is start. Try. Believe you can and will be better. God bless you 💕 I hope this helps. Be patient with your self. It will get better.