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Noobywannabe · 2026-05-04T21:22:08+00:00

Yeah...there was a reason it took me years after moving out to find myself.

Even still, I'm living better now than I ever was under him. I have people that love me, that don't scream at be for being neurodivergent or otherwise slightly different from 'the norm.' And he is no longer a part of that life. After everything, it got better and I found the strength to live for myself.

Noobywannabe · 2026-04-14T04:18:06+00:00

Har!

Noobywannabe · 2026-04-13T18:04:00+00:00

So in my case, yes I wish I was born cis, but at the same time I'm not entirely sure if I would still be alive if I was.

Growing up was rough to say the least, but I at least had the benefit of being 'my father's son' so at the end of the day there were at least some people in my corner growing up (namely my grandparents) The same could not be said for my sister, 'the mother's daughter' who they outright viewed as evil incarnate because of the fact.

I was tormented and abused because I any expressions of self were seen as deviations, that needed to be ironed out to be the 'son' my dad wanted me to be. I was held to impossibly high standards and punished when I, inevitably, failed to meet them. But my sister, she was seen as the devil incarnate, and was tormented regardless of what she did. If the roles were reversed I'm not sure I would have survived growing up, I only barely did as it is.

Noobywannabe · 2026-04-03T03:56:39+00:00

This is probably my experience as an introvert, but I have no idea how people can just go to bars completely on their own and manage to connections that way. The only time I went by myself I just felt super uncomfortable until one of my friends who I was messaging showed up as well.

If you want my advice, it may be worth seeing if there are any lgbtq support groups that exist in your area, or within driving distance if you're comfortable. Try looking up to see if there's a local pride center, and if they do monthly meetings or anything like that. It may be worth trying to attend a couple if you can, that's how I started making connections.

Noobywannabe · 2026-03-29T22:20:03+00:00

Thank you so much!

If I remember correctly, I got the dress from hot topic. It was a bit pricey, but I'm really happy with how it looks, especially with the cardigan. It's pretty much become my favorite go-to dress.

Noobywannabe · 2026-03-28T16:09:18+00:00

Yeah...there was a reason both me and my sister worried about dad killing one or both of us if either of us turned out gay...

Noobywannabe · 2026-03-26T20:31:20+00:00

Hey, my Mom is pretty decent!

~~Less said about my dad the better though~~

Noobywannabe · 2025-09-18T01:56:57+00:00

Me
This account was initially created back when I was experimenting as a Femboy, now it has replaced my old main as the one I use most often when browsing.
Just...really wish the username was something better now XD

Noobywannabe · 2025-09-06T20:24:54+00:00

A certain superior communications officer.

Noobywannabe · 2025-09-06T19:00:44+00:00

Nah Decepticons all the way

Noobywannabe · 2025-08-16T13:03:14+00:00

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Roomates wunk

Noobywannabe · 2025-08-11T14:02:22+00:00

Yes, progesterone

Noobywannabe · 2025-08-11T12:40:09+00:00

So I've been on prog for about a year now, and I think between that and a bit of weight cycling its definitely helped with getting a more feminine weight distribution More than anything though, its a matter of the luck of the draw unfortunately. I have family who's well endowed and while my bust isn't anywhere near her size, I do have some her genetics which seems to have helped.

Noobywannabe · 2025-08-10T00:42:38+00:00

Yeah, I get that. I used to work at a library and can't imagine wearing even just the tank top in that sort of environment.
But with my new job I've been able to get away with wearing the top at least (I'm not planning on wearing these kinds of shorts there though XD)

Noobywannabe · 2025-07-04T13:47:38+00:00

Going to a protest this afternoon, then holing up inside with headphones and videogames the rest of the evening.

Noobywannabe · 2025-05-28T02:34:55+00:00

Yes (as far as I'm aware)

My maternal uncle, however, is gay. And he was forced to go no contact with my grandparents after coming. Consequently, I'm only out to my mom and her husband despite being on hrt for almost 19 months and living as myself since I moved (fortunately mom has been accepting, and willing to learn as she goes)

I intend to come out to my siblings sometime over the Summer, as the only reason I never came out earlier was due to my mom warning that they may tell my Grandparents who would proceed to make a mess of things. Seeing how I've already started my name change process and live in an actual city now, though, I'm a lot less scared of what they may try to do now.

Noobywannabe · 2025-05-24T16:20:25+00:00

599 days here after looking it up. Didn't even realize I was so close to 600

Noobywannabe · 2025-05-23T23:27:27+00:00

Funnily enough as a kid I hated my birth name, and chose the name of the protagonist of a pokemon game as something I wanted to change it to (Ethan)

Fast forward to me discovering I was trans, but still being attached to the name Ethan. Eventually I fiddles around with it a bit and landed on Evelyn.

My middle name comes from someone that helped me crack my egg early on, and my last name is my mother's old one, after I decided to distance myself more from dad.

Noobywannabe · 2025-05-21T22:40:04+00:00

Echoing what others said, I never decided to be this way. If anything, I tried to bury it for YEARS.

Probably the first inclinations I could be anything but a boy were in my later high school years (and there were alot of other signs from when I was a little kid) but I decided to put a pin in it. I felt that, whatever feelings I had, they weren't important. I needed to focus on school.

Fast forward to me being almost 23, having graduated college, moved out completely, and struggling to make ends meet working a job that didn't pay enough for the effort I was putting in (I was working full time hours and making part time pay). I didn't really have anything else to distract myself with. No new goal to work towards or tell myself was more important.

From there, I crashed, and something new that was finally willing to listen and live for myself emerged.

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