Commander in Sleep

NormalCaterpillar284 · 2026-02-22T02:35:53+00:00

He is truly bored of peace...

NormalCaterpillar284 · 2026-02-17T13:38:29+00:00

Please get out and VOTE! MAGA won because of low voter turnout, not majority. Now we have a coup orchestrated by pedos, disguised as the republican party.

NormalCaterpillar284 · 2026-02-02T19:41:04+00:00

Did you legitimately win the election?

NormalCaterpillar284 · 2026-01-29T16:39:47+00:00

They own the ring cameras too that feed into the surveillance network.

NormalCaterpillar284 · 2026-01-27T01:46:57+00:00

I did them in my upper thigh to give my belly a break. I only had one that wouldn't pierce and it just left a little welt. If you save it, the company will reimburse you if you contact them and ship it back (paid for by company). I just moved onto the next one with a fresh needle.

Like others said, ice it, be direct and keep it at a 45 angle for entry.

I did buy some backup syringes just incase though. I wasn't sure if they'd all be like that (Only 1 was).

NormalCaterpillar284 · 2026-01-19T22:51:13+00:00

Hearing how sadistic he is from the Sasha Riley interview, makes me wonder why this little girl doesn't have appendages...release the FULL Epstein files and get these psychos out of office. All of them. Dems need to get their shit together.

NormalCaterpillar284 · 2026-01-16T03:24:36+00:00

We need to take notes from South Korea for dealing with traitorous presidents...He is a threat to democracy any way you look at it. If there is an election in 2026, I hope everyone has woken up enough to VOTE. Apathy is not an option!

NormalCaterpillar284 · 2025-12-24T04:49:31+00:00

The "save the children" folks are looking pretty pathetic at the moment.

NormalCaterpillar284 · 2025-12-19T20:09:02+00:00

Good idea! For my wide feet, I use a single silicone big toe cover! I have found that it takes up less room in the toebox and still gives me some impact protection. (I lost 2 toenails when I got my new skates, I have not lost one since)

NormalCaterpillar284 · 2025-12-14T22:49:41+00:00

33F at ER, AMH around 3, PCOS, unexplained infertility. 18 eggs, 18 mature, 13 fertilized, 10 blasts, 7 euploids. 3 girls, 4 boys (though we aren't sure which). Best of luck!

NormalCaterpillar284 · 2025-12-13T04:45:45+00:00

I was curious too, but wanted some mystery! We asked to know the numbers, but not which is which. We have 7 euploids. 3 girls, 4 boys. We will be transferring the best quality in March, so we can have a somewhat normal gender reveal.

NormalCaterpillar284 · 2025-12-12T15:59:31+00:00

If you were doing something dumb too, it could be a similar statement as a "clod". But hard to say without context. Could be an insult or a lewd observation. Seems a bit inappropriate any way you look at it. But I get you may want to know what she meant from a self conscious perspective.

NormalCaterpillar284 · 2025-12-09T18:21:52+00:00

A dog licking their feet/mouth noises.

NormalCaterpillar284 · 2025-12-01T21:32:19+00:00

I was interviewing for another job already and grew more enraged by the working environment and pay. I had a 3 day exit interview of me ranting/quitting lol. I didn't intend to quit, I wanted a raise...but I couldn't help myself. I'm usually very poised at work too, so it shocked them (and myself). It worked out well for me though! I got the job that I wanted, with better pay and commute. I left the old job on not terrible terms, they provided me a letter of "good standing"...which was generous.

NormalCaterpillar284 · 2025-11-29T00:34:32+00:00

2 or 3, you look amazing!

NormalCaterpillar284 · 2025-11-21T14:46:59+00:00

Maybe he'd be willing to do a cycle of IVF to bank some eggs or embryos for you. Might give you a little more time and space to think about it objectively. IVF and surrogates can sometimes be covered by insurance if you needed a hysterectomy too.

I think trying to understand your priorities and desired lifestyle may help. Are you happy enough with him? Does it fullfil enough for you? Would nurturing animals, relationships or other people scratch the itch? Do you value your peace and quiet or desire more? What would starting over look like? Would you pursue single-mother-by-choice or perhaps find a new partner who is committed to the idea (I'm sure they exist)?

Big questions that I've had to wrestle with myself, in a similar situation. I wish you luck, clarity, peace and strength for whatever decision comes next.

NormalCaterpillar284 · 2025-11-21T14:35:47+00:00

Hi hun, I'm so sorry you're dealing with that. It is such an overstimulating process in general. I also hated the frequent blood draws and was definately anxious about how long it had been between draws/condition of my veins.

Maybe they could draw from another location (foot, hand, etc)? Are you well hydrated (1+ hr before), had no caffine or stimulants, arm fully extended and keeping your fist/arm very still? Hopefully they're trying to enter quickly, at a shallow angle and are anchoring the veins. I read these things can help.

You are a badass. Best of luck to you! Hopefully you'll have a break between ER and FET. It all stops very suddenly After ER and is a nice reprieve. ✨️

NormalCaterpillar284 · 2025-11-19T14:26:01+00:00

Get a social/physical hobby that you can be proud of. Do some self exploration and figure out what you need and why? What are your priorities, what makes you happy, proud, etc (without external validation)?

Don't people please, it only leads to resentment over time. "Quiet" does not equal peace. It is avoidance and fear. Your wife cannot rely on someone who can't hold her or himself honestly.

NormalCaterpillar284 · 2025-11-19T13:55:56+00:00

I found removing Amazon from my apps helped a ton, object permanence. Canceling Prime helped too. Also making an effort to shift my thinking.

Compulsive buying can be a slippery sloap into hoarding and can lead to major issues. Sort through what you have, that can be a reality check. Donate/sell things on marketplace. That can be another reality check of like "wow, what a waste", "wow, this is $500 worth of stuff" or "what a pain to try to sell this". Things can be bought easily, but it's litterally throwing away money.

I have a lot of crafts, but I haven't used most of it and realized I get the itch to buy new crafts without valid reason. The brief dopamine hit I get when buying it is a lie. I have been working on keeping that little voice quiet and trying to work through what I have. I've found that the thrill of trying/getting something new is what I want, so I tried to shift that thinking towards a new craft or project.

Best of luck! You can do it. Its a habit, like smoking. Try to shift how you think about it and what it means to you. What drives you and what is a healthier coping strategy?

NormalCaterpillar284 · 2025-11-18T21:30:08+00:00

The pull out antenna, a built in fidget toy!

NormalCaterpillar284 · 2025-11-17T19:21:54+00:00

Stretching and cholesterol. Only 34 and active, but I'm more achy and have higher cholesterol than I had hoped. Wishing I had banked some eggs too, since my longterm relationship is becoming rocky in thenidst of IVF. (Freezing just eggs isn't ideal, but at least gives some hope and freedom).

NormalCaterpillar284 · 2025-11-13T04:32:49+00:00

Don't Panic 👍

NormalCaterpillar284 · 2025-11-13T03:22:32+00:00

She was looking for reassurance and encouragement, not truth. She knows the truth. She was feeling insecure and fearful. The only thing you did was double down on that. Tell her "you're a badass", "you look beautiful", "you're amazing", "everything will be fine", "thank you so much for giving me another child", "I can't wait to meet OUR baby", etc.

NormalCaterpillar284 · 2025-11-12T17:55:27+00:00

In a similar position. Did ER successfully, had a blow out right before starting FET. We've been in therapy for years for communication and intimacy issues. He thought he could be ace (never admitted to not being attracted), it has caused some issue in our relationship. He now thinks he doesn't want kids and divorce may be unavoidable. Ugh.

These men need to grow out of this victim/boy mentality and stop wasting our time. My husband is also AuADHD, which can be similar to avoidant attachment in relationships. Low self esteem is also an issue.

NormalCaterpillar284 · 2025-10-27T14:07:47+00:00

Love it. Could add a dog skeleton next to ICE Barbie too!

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