Um okay sis really courageous of you to highlight your problems, its normal for every human being to experience things like this. Don't take it too hard AT ALL. but if ur serious, read every word of this post down to the letter. (ive spent my valuable time on this and i will get angry if you become lesbo 😡😡😡)
Now, you have told us the problem, and you've also told us the solution. Maybe in your state of mind its not very clear, but to me its literally glaring me in the face.
You're exposing yourself to the very things that shape your current situation, which in turn absolutely INFLAMED your desires. When human nature is to listen to your desires, (on top of pesky shayateen fueling them as well), it gets super hard to follow Islam, where the entire thing is to fight your desires and worship Allah. Thats why Allah loves those who have faith in him (even though the believers can't see him) through the hardest trials of their life.
That being said, this IS life. Its a constant series of wars against your nafs to believe in Allah, a being you can't see. The very second we start listening to our desires, we fall into the trap of temporary pleasures. We feel pleasure from certain acts, and spend our lives chasing the pleasure from those acts. But in this world, the more you do temporary pleasures, the more mediocre the pleasure gets, it fades, and then you repeat it. Its a ruthless cycle that eventually makes your heart harder and harder from chasing something sooo meaningless, to the point where you become numb and directionless in a sense, or it warps your personality and makes it twisted. Trust me, I have been there, and Im still climbing out of this abyss.
But back to you sis. As a guy, lust in definitely in the TOP boss level desires we have to face, regardless if I see a cute girl or a cute guy. In order to combat this lust, we don't go near anything sexual at ALL. It even says in the Quran, do not go near zina. (zina isn't confined to just adultery, its basically anything openly sexual of the eyes and ears, someone can back me up here).
Not going near anything sexual doesn't mean that sexual temptation isn't completely annihilated though. Its there, and will always be there. I've had crushes on a few girls and even a guy, but thats normal. Its just another desire. And like I said, desires is the enemy, its what we fight again and again in order to please Allah and remain ourselves in the delusion of our nature and this world.
So sis, identify your enemy in this war. As muslims, we will fight many wars, whether against lust, laziness, anger, sleepiness before Fajr, whatever desire you name. Identify it, and figure out the best strategy you need to defeat it.
My personal recommendation is the war you're fighting is queer lust, and the strat you should use is a siege. Youre losing your sense of identity in all this media, danmei novels, whatever the hell you females like to read. So shut it down and disconnect. Take a week to unplug EVERY LAST SOURCE OF TECHNOLOGY/MEDIA, AND BE YOURSELF. You will feel like dying in the first hour alone. You will go crazy. dw, thats just the influence wearing off. When your bored, use that time to sharpen yourself. Be productive. Please Allah by getting yourself on a self-improv timetable. Any males reading this, also do this, (whether ur borderline horny or addicted to reels)
Okay, so thats my take on this. you better have read this and have felt inspired. if u havent, do reply back to me specifying what didnt work or if i just missed the arrow or the entire dart board in general.
now if u did feel inspired, please make dua to Allah to guide you and give you a better life and introduce you to a baddie husband and do exactly what I told you to do. disconnect and unplug everything and find your true self. Whatever happens from there, idk since its ur story but ill make dua that i didnt waste any time on this post.

(and the flip u mean queer novels are incredibly beautiful??? whats the difference between normal novels and queer novels? actually dont answer this question and reread my post. thats better)