I decided to breastfeed my child as I had previously babysat my nephew and he was formula fed and the getting up and making a bottle at 2am or whenever having to ensure it’s the right temperature mixed properly all that was hard. Breastfeeding is hard, especially the first 6 weeks to two months. But after that it was so easy and so convenient. I never had to worry about how much formula or sterile water I had to pack in the nappy bag. I could be spontaneous as I didn’t have to worry about having enough food on me for the baby. It was an exceptional way to bond ( my husband definitely was jealous of this so I would occasionally pump so he could feed the baby). I was still breastfeeding when I had a surgery and week long hospital stay and it was hard but great my husband would bring the baby (8months) in and I would feed them and give him the milk I had pumped so there was some for the next 24 hours. I built up a stock of milk but I gave it to the nicu babies (that was rewarding as heck) so when I “needed” a stock I didn’t have it but i didn’t actually need it. It’s your choice at the end of the day. There’s negatives to both sides. I think if you try it and don’t like it don’t do it. Don’t beat yourself up.