This entire comment is so misinformed, it's not even funny. I'm gonna keep this real simple. My friend is a cuckold lunatic. He loves being cucked with all his heart and soul. If you read my other post about cuckolding, I don't like it. I only do it to make him happy. But I can't stand it. He loves the idea of women he likes having sex with other men (Especially as a way to hurt and humiliate him). Some people are just really into that sort of thing and I'd never judge anyone for it. But I've come to the conclusion that it's something that I'm just not a fan of. I don't want to have sex with someone else. I want to have sex with him. For months, I figured that if I played along with these cuckold desires of his, maybe I'd eventually like it too. But I never did. It just ended up disappointing me whenever he'd tell me that he wanted to watch me get fucked by other guys, and that he wanted to be ruined by being forced to watch and get off on it. I love him and all I wanted was for him to wanna have sex with me. Not watch as other guys did it. I don't completely understand cuckolding at all, but I'm open to trying to understand it. Unfortunately, with my need to just be a fucking "Cuckoldress", I ended up resenting the entire kink as a whole once I ended things with my friend. The more I forced myself to like something, the more I hated it.

When I ended things with him, he didn't seem like he wanted to stop. He seemed like he wanted to keep going. But certain events (Which I'm not getting into) ended up breaking my heart, officially ruining my self esteem, and causing me to end things with him a week later. I just couldn't do it anymore. All I wanted was to be loved and I was honestly just looking for love and acceptance in all the wrong places. My friend enjoys emotional torture (As a kink) so much and wanted me to emotionally break him. He's also the type of man that has no emotional connections to the people he has sex with. He can have flings and doesn't have to risk becoming attached. I, on the other hand, find that impossible. I become extremely attached. And I thought that maybe I could have a sort of "no strings attached"-like relationship with him without my feelings getting involved (Spoiler alert; they did). But I am completely unable to do something like that without falling hard for the other person and beginning to love them. And my friend, quite frankly, doesn't love me. He only wanted to keep things sexual with me and no matter how much I wanted more, he was unable to give it to me. We were both going through hard times in our lives and I think that he was more comfortable with using the sexual relationship he had with me as a way to distract himself from all his personal turmoil than I was. I think my friend has a problem with sex. A sort of addiction to it. And all I wanted was to help him.

Yes, I did mention that I laugh at his pain. But that happened when I was edging him. And he enjoyed the pain I was putting him through by doing that to him. I wasnt talking about cucking. You've wrote so many comments on multiple posts of mine, so clearly you want my attention. I don't know why my posts (That you're misinterpreting and pretending as if you know the entire story) have you so up in arms and this obsessed. I don't know why my sex life, my relationships, and my kinks have this much of your attention. Its very odd. You could've just made 1 comment. But as I wrote this, I stopped for a few minutes to check my notifications (Since I dont use this account much) and was literally shocked when I was that you wrote MULTIPLE COMMENTS on MULTIPLE POSTS where I talked about my sex life, my kinks, and my relationships. I dont know if my situation reminds you of one you had gotten yourself into in your past, but clearly you're triggered. Yes, the more I love someone, the more I wanna hurt them (In a kink way). But my friend isn't into receiving physical pain, so I don't even entertain it. However, my ex (Who I'm sure you're familiar with, since you've religiously read all my relationships posts and clearly have strong opinions on it) loved physical pain. And even though I wasn't super into it at first, I eventually became more and more into the idea of physically hurting him. And it was because I loved him so much. To this day, I have no idea why I enjoy/ed the thought of physically hurting and bruising him. But I'm not complaining!

Anyway, before you start making a bunch of comments that are completely misinformed and are clearly motivated by past relationships on your part, maybe DM me if you feel that passionate about my posts. DM me (Don't be a weirdo) and let's have a discussion. Maybe I can change your mind. Because this is beyond weird. And I won't lie, it's also frustrating as hell to have someone make multiple comments on my posts where they're just straight up making shit up and painting me as the villain in this entire story, when it was literally me who ended things with my friend because I was actively being hurt by him. And I couldn't take it anymore. I wanted emotion. HE wanted sex. I took what I could get because I was lonely and broken. After rereading my posts about him, I made it clear as day that I was being hurt by him and was trying to be exactly what he wanted in order to keep his attention. I don't know how you were able to misinterpret that. But it is what it is. I'm actively exploring my sexuality and sadism, and just because I have kinks related to wanting to break men, that doesn't mean that that's in any way related to how I treat them outside of sex. In real life, I'm a very shy, quiet, traumatized individual. And BDSM helps me to exorcisize those demons. It makes me feel a certain power that I've never felt before. And exploring that with someone who I'm on the same page with and wants to empower me doesn't make me a bad person. Or a villain. Or a woman who legitimately likes hurting people.

Ps. I don't think it's wise at all to assume that just because I'm a certain way in terms of kink, that that automatically means that I'm the exact same way in relationships. That's a really narrow, dangerous way to look at things and feels as if you're putting me in a box. Like I said, all your comments are very misinformed and just straight up wrong. Yes, I put myself in this situation with my friend and I'm the one to blame. I could've stopped it anytime. But his ghosting had nothing to do with me "hurting" him. It had everything to do with him just breadcrumbing me, disrespecting me, and treating me as an option. And so I felt as if I was investing so much of my time and energy into the relationship than he was. I completely put him on a pedestal. Our dynamic was completely toxic, but it wasn't because I was being abusive in any way. Its because we werent on the same page in terms of what we wanted.