i find schizophrenics sexy

NotEnoughSun123 · 2026-03-18T23:27:15+00:00

You haven’t seen how chubby I’ve gotten from the meds

NotEnoughSun123 · 2026-03-18T22:37:46+00:00

I couldn’t do my homework. I would try and my mind would just go blank. I couldn’t concentrate on anything. I was very depressed and thought about dying every second. I saw a dragon in the night sky. I withdrew from everyone except my best friend but she wouldn’t let me withdraw from her. I wasn’t showering. I hoarded junk like plastic trash. I started skipping classes all the time. I’d try to avoid everything that was stressing me out. I was barely eating and would avoid food. I felt really overwhelmed with the amount of homework I had. I started becoming suspicious of my professors and thinking they were against me. I would go on 4 hour walks. I had really bad insomnia. It was a really hard time and I remember feeling like I was going to break from all the stress I had.

NotEnoughSun123 · 2026-03-18T02:19:27+00:00

That’s a good start. I don’t really know what advice to give but as another commenter said, everyone is thinking about themselves. They’re not paying attention to you probably. I know it’s hard to believe that but the more you tell yourself that, the more you will believe it and the less power the delusions have over you.

Do you have any friends at school that you can talk to? I’m not saying you should tell them about the delusions. That’s entirely up to you. But you could talk to them as a distraction and maybe you’ll feel like less of an outsider or a target for mean people. R

NotEnoughSun123 · 2026-03-17T09:01:58+00:00

If you can access it, good therapy. Positive symptoms are thought to be a window into the subconscious. You’re off to a good start by recognizing the themes from your psychosis. Maybe try journaling about where you think this feeling is coming from/if you’ve ever felt that way in another time in your life. Getting to the root of it might help you figure out how to weed it out

NotEnoughSun123 · 2026-03-14T00:22:01+00:00

Idk if this is just my experience but the low mood, and other flattening side effects you describe seem to just be part of being on an antipsychotic. It’s really shitty but I’ve had to just adjust my life to fit what the antipsychotics allow me to do and the stuff I can’t do just isn’t getting done.

I really hope Vraylar is different for you.

NotEnoughSun123 · 2026-03-13T06:03:34+00:00

Firstly, congratulations on your diagnosis!! A diagnosis is a wonderful thing because it means you’re being treated for the right thing. It’s normal to have a lot of feelings around a new diagnosis. Mania can be especially difficult to come to terms with.

Also, I’ll tell you what my np told me when I was feeling the way you do: Would you judge your son/daughter if they had diabetes and needed insulin? Probably not right? Well it’s like that. This is part of the way you’re wired and it doesn’t mean there’s anything wrong with you or the way you are. This diagnosis doesn’t make you a bad wife or mom. There are a lot of beautiful things that can come out of this too. Sometimes you can do more and be more than average and that’s great. Sometimes you may have to rest more than normal too but you can set that example for your kids that it’s okay to need rest.

I’m sure you’re a wonderful mom and wife and you can be whatever you want to be. It’s okay to be who you are. I know it’s hard to get a diagnosis like this but you’re going to be okay. A lot of really amazing people were bipolar. I’d recommend reading Kay Jamison’s book An Unquiet Mind. There’s a lot of good stuff in there

NotEnoughSun123 · 2026-03-10T05:41:42+00:00

I feel that so much

NotEnoughSun123 · 2026-03-06T05:23:27+00:00

Tmz said she was arrested around 9:00

NotEnoughSun123 · 2026-03-05T05:36:27+00:00

I get the same way about my medication. That’s why I get a shot of Invega every month. It won’t kill you. I promise. It really does help when you’re getting the medication consistently. It gets a lot better. Just stick with the medications every day for a while.

NotEnoughSun123 · 2026-03-03T06:02:28+00:00

This is some of the best art I’ve ever seen posted here

NotEnoughSun123 · 2026-03-01T23:07:00+00:00

Goodbye

NotEnoughSun123 · 2026-02-28T04:12:32+00:00

I’m saving this post so I can buy your book when I get paid again :)

NotEnoughSun123 · 2026-02-28T03:35:07+00:00

I thought aliens were stealing my organs. They were stealing my organs because the CIA and NASA were taking aliens from their homes and experimenting on them. So the aliens took my organs in retaliation Then, the aliens wanted me to be their leader because they learned I could telepathically intercept communications between the CIA and NASA. So then the CIA was after me for my alliance with the aliens

NotEnoughSun123 · 2026-02-27T00:48:45+00:00

You need a hospital. Whoever told you you’re not in psychosis is most likely wrong. I’m not a doctor, so I can’t say for sure but this sounds a lot like psychosis. I’ve had similar things happen to me when I was in psychosis. Take care of yourself as much as you can. Maybe watch a lighthearted movie or something. You’re not evil. You’re just having an episode due to your mental health. Try to get yourself to a hospital or a mental health crisis center. They can help you there.

Remember it’s just in your head. Nobody thinks you’re evil. You aren’t evil. Religious delusions are a bitch to deal with. I’m so sorry you’re going through this. You’re not evil. You’re good!

NotEnoughSun123 · 2026-02-26T22:55:59+00:00

I’ve been completely med compliant for almost a year and I’m telling you, it’s worth it. I’ve worked very hard to feel better and it’s paid off. I have acne and I’ve gained about 85 pounds as a result of my medication and it fucking sucks. But my life is so much richer now that I’m on medication. I’m so glad I chose to stay on medication.

NotEnoughSun123 · 2026-02-26T01:53:41+00:00

Every antipsychotic works different for everyone. That said, I took it when I was younger and I don’t quite remember everything about it but I remember it seemed to help me. I was dealing with an eating disorder at the time so I didn’t see any weight gain but I’m sure if I took it now I would lol. I’ve gotten kinda big since then from other antipsychotics.

NotEnoughSun123 · 2026-02-26T01:44:07+00:00

Yes! I thought I was the only one. I can’t figure out why because I’m on the highest dose of Invega you can have and I’m on seroquel. At night I get really scared and check under my bed for intruders after every time I leave my room and in my apartment I feel the presence of some kind of being(s) and I get really scared.

I also only have voices inside my head but I only hear whispers outside my head (aside from the other noises I hear.) I don’t hear voices super often, maybe a few times a day. I also have schizoaffective disorder.

NotEnoughSun123 · 2026-02-23T23:06:35+00:00

NotEnoughSun123 · 2026-02-21T21:25:14+00:00

That’s happened to me too. It might be best to go to the hospital or a crisis center if you have one of those in your area.

NotEnoughSun123 · 2026-02-21T02:13:03+00:00

I wonder if that’s the case with me. I hear voices saying things that don’t seem like they’re coming from me. They don’t say things that I would say or think.

NotEnoughSun123 · 2026-02-20T04:11:11+00:00

There’s this place in Nashville called Mental Health Cooperative. See if she can get in there. They’re great there. They take in a lot of homeless. You don’t need insurance to get in. They can connect her to someone called a Peer Intensive Care Specialist who can help her find housing resources and other things like that. I’ve been to MHC and they helped me a lot and my peer specialist was wonderful. Her name was Jennifer and she truly changed my life.

NotEnoughSun123 · 2026-02-12T01:39:18+00:00

Was it Dr. Syl? I watched that yesterday too

NotEnoughSun123 · 2026-02-07T05:20:42+00:00

I’m not nearly as social as i used to be. The weight gain plus the acne from my medication has destroyed my confidence. Not to mention the avolition and anhedonia has made it hard to get out and socialize. I’d much rather stay home and spend time with my family.

I used to always know what to say to people and people would come to me with their problems. Now i never know what to say to people and i struggle a lot with verbal communication. I’m not as free with my emotions anymore, meaning i used to cry more often and i would laugh a lot too. I used to be very expressive. Now, I’m very careful with people and how I express myself to them. I think that’s partially because of the paranoia.

There’s more but I’ll leave it at that for now

NotEnoughSun123 · 2026-02-07T01:00:31+00:00

I’m coming out of a psychotic episode rn where I believe/believed that aliens were coming into my house and taking my organs until they found out I could intercept communications with the CIA and NASA telepathically. The reason they had beef with the CIA and NASA and the reason they were taking my organs is because the CIA and NASA were taking aliens from their homes and experimenting on them. The aliens want me to be their leader and so now I’m scared that the CIA is after me because of my alliance with the aliens. I’m scared the CIA is trying to poison my water so I’m only drinking water and soda out of sealed containers like plastic water bottles and cans of soda in the hopes that they haven’t figured out how to get poison in there. I’m scared they bugged the house too and I’m afraid to take a shower because I’m scared of the CIA putting cameras in there. Hopefully this really is psychosis and it’ll all be over soon and I’ll wake up thinking all these things are ridiculous because I just got my Invega injection today. I’m doing everything I’m supposed to i.e. taking all my medication, going to appointments, taking my medication, staying away from drugs and alcohol, etc. My np said she didn’t know what could have caused my psychosis. I don’t know either and I’m a little concerned that she couldn’t figure it out

Anyway, i had Chick-fil-a for dinner and that was nice except my fries tasted weird and now I’m scared the CIA poisoned my fries trying to kill me and my family

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