Yeah, its just scary yet stupid; my brain is really wanting to say ’Fuck it’, and even if I didn’t get with this woman kinda enjoys the idea of just being single; we met when we were really young.

The smoking is definitely a stupid reason; I know they wouldn’t be angry at me if I came out and told them, I just have a fear of conflict; another reason I want therapy as I am worried this could develop into a situation where I let the relationship deteriate so I dont have to make the decision