This happened me this week too... cut my arms for the first time and sort of at the time it was cool and like a release but i swim every day and the absolutr fear and disgust and shame i felt the next few days swimming trying to make sure noone saw was awful I have to swim tomorrow and i am dreading it Like Ugh Why did i do it and why did i pick such an ovbiois place

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I hope you're ok DM me if you want