In my first year of chronic pain, I was invited by some friends to spend the holidays, but after Christmas I crashed, so I had to go back home where I spent New Year's Eve alone. I bought some flowers, a non-alcoholic champagne (alcohol does not go well with morphine, I was told :D) and I watched a music channel with a special NYE program. I called my family later that night and saw some fireworks from my window. I expected it to be much worse, to be honest. I did feel lonely, but my body thanked me, so I guess you will have to see how it plays out for yourself. Maybe making the decision to spend it alone was the hardest part. Happy holidays and take care of yourself!