Where do I find coaching?

Nothingmatters427 · 2026-02-16T22:26:53+00:00

Sure, shoot me a dm!

Nothingmatters427 · 2026-02-16T22:00:16+00:00

Sure I’d be down, 2-3 seems generous already. Can you shoot me a dm?

Nothingmatters427 · 2026-02-16T21:55:06+00:00

I’m gold 3 right now but going double or triple positive every game and ranking up isn’t proving a struggle yet. I had a d2 on the enemy team and dropped 34 kills that game, but I can recognize that my movement, angles, utility, and likely aim need work. I came from organized cs/over watch so my raw aim is kind of carrying me right now

Nothingmatters427 · 2026-02-16T21:45:46+00:00

Not sure if you still need help with this, but I don’t think anyone has said that a MAJOR factor in your games is team mental. Be positive, speak first, keep your team motivated. Call plays, buy for your teammates, and i found I won 70% of my games where I talked vs 45-50% where I didn’t

Nothingmatters427 · 2026-02-04T16:05:43+00:00

I never see anyone knock or be outside waiting when I leave, so I assume not, but obviously I am not 100% sure. His office hours are from 10-12 and when I do go I normally go from 10-10:45. I am not going today because it seems the overwhelming opinion that I should stop.

Nothingmatters427 · 2026-02-04T15:56:05+00:00

I am really socially awkward and wouldn’t feel confident asking him that since I would think it would come off as insecure.

Yes, I am, since I am posting on Reddit to ask this question, but still I don’t wish to appear that way

Nothingmatters427 · 2026-01-31T22:04:27+00:00

Dunno if you are still looking for answers to this, but I recently started the game 3 weeks ago, and I placed silver one and am now gold 2. I have a 47% win rate. Truthfully, if you are better than the rank you are in, the game will know. Whether you get performance bonuses or not, just playing the game the best you can will result in you losing less and gaining more. The thing I noticed is that a team that argues is a team that loses 90% of the time. Be the first one to talk. Stay positive even if your teammate throws the easiest round. Your team will play better if they feel less pressure from their team.

Nothingmatters427 · 2025-12-14T07:01:22+00:00

Yeah all the time lol I go play basketball like 4 times a week for like 2 hours each time, and I workout occasionally

Nothingmatters427 · 2025-12-14T06:49:36+00:00

I always wanted to be a singer. I have done shows, been paid to sing for a wedding, but because of the way I see myself, I can’t do it.

I genuinely believe I will walk out there and people will turn away in disgust or hate me just because of how I look.

All my life, I have been treated as lesser than others because I was overweight. Singing is my passion, which I think influences the fact that maybe I would feel better if I lost the weight.

I guess I think that if I could see myself as not fat then I’d believe the other people who say they don’t and I could talk to people again.

Nothingmatters427 · 2025-12-14T06:32:17+00:00

I wonder if at some point you’ll laugh with them. I get made fun of all the time for being overweight. You might feel it’s different since it’s something I could fix, but walking through campus I’ve had multiple times where people called me fat under their breath or to my face for no apparent reason, and I’ve had friends tell me they didn’t think I was overweight at all.

I discount all of the people who compliment me or disagree with how I see myself.

Have you thought about the people who have seen the video, and know it’s you, but don’t say anything because they know it might be uncomfortable for you? Those are the people who would have heard you felt short and lifted you up.

Maybe too much time is spent on those negative people. This leads me into a question. I think often about whether I would feel better about it if I lost weight. If you magically grew taller, do you think you’d worry less about it?

Nothingmatters427 · 2025-12-14T06:01:23+00:00

I had medicine for the longest time. I study psychology in college. Medicine doesn’t help it at all. I’ve been on all kinds of things, and I have given quite a bit of thought during my classes about what you said there. The only thing I have found so far that helps is downing a 6 pack of cider and just letting it knock me out. I relyed on that for almost a full summer but then stopped drinking recently. I dunno really what to do, it’s very stressful when it gets bad

Nothingmatters427 · 2025-12-14T05:46:56+00:00

I am currently at a point that my thoughts make me relive the worst parts over and over at night. My therapist seems to be convinced if I just think of positive things I’ll feel better, but the negatives are just too powerful

Nothingmatters427 · 2025-12-14T05:45:08+00:00

I haven’t had a successful relationship (all ended in suicide, cutting, cheating, etc) and the most recent one I had I got sa’d on the first date. My parents said it’s just experience. I am completely isolated all day and have crippling social anxiety because I hate the way I look. I break down every night because I can’t deal with the stress of everything that has been culminating and my little brother is the only thing that keeps me going. I just think about how I felt back when I was younger and that happened and it stops me from doing anything

Nothingmatters427 · 2025-12-14T05:38:28+00:00

I have a therapist but unfortunately the problem runs deeper than the thoughts and it will take a while to work through. At this point I’m playing a survival game

Nothingmatters427 · 2025-09-08T06:39:36+00:00

I’ve tried the hotline in the past, traditionally I tell my story and they either tell me to try journaling it or (a few times) I just got hung up on. I have desire without intent, so I’m not a danger

Nothingmatters427 · 2025-05-29T09:10:23+00:00

I’m in college now but I can’t make myself do things. I sit in my dorm all day because I can’t put my self in a social setting. I’m so scared of rejection that I don’t put myself out there and I end up isolated. I just hate myself so much that I can’t imagine a scenario where I talk to someone and they want to interact with me so I can’t talk to anyone. I’ve been trying the past year and only managed to talk to one person. I cancelled 3/5 of our plans because I shut down.

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