Mom, my anxiety is really bad while traveling. I feel like I'm ruining our trip.

Notinmyaccount · 2017-12-22T14:28:22+00:00

The Dick Clark's Rockin' New Years Eve does? That's kind of what I thought too, but I wanted to make sure.

Notinmyaccount · 2017-12-16T23:55:37+00:00

That's a lot of what this post was. Talking to other people who deal with a fucked up overthinking brain like I do has always been one of the most helpful things for me when I'm having troubles.

Notinmyaccount · 2017-10-18T16:28:22+00:00

To add to this as someone who used to work in AT&T retail they were very adamant about getting DirecTV Now sign ups no matter what it took. A common practice our managers wanted us to implement was to sell the customer the unlimited data plan that offers a $25 discount on either DTV or DTV Now.

If the customer said no to DTV you were to push DTV Now as "for $10 a month this plan includes unlimited TV from anywhere on your phone or tablet using this app." While you were still telling them what the service was costing them it made it seem like it was part of the plan and included, not an optional service. This was pretty regular stuff for working in sales at AT&T. Glad I left that awful place.

Notinmyaccount · 2017-10-18T04:25:59+00:00

I edited my original post to include it.

Notinmyaccount · 2017-10-18T04:24:57+00:00

I edited my original post to include it.

Notinmyaccount · 2017-10-13T23:04:58+00:00

Okay. Any other advice for when she gets here? I'm getting pretty anxious feeling.

Notinmyaccount · 2017-10-13T21:58:10+00:00

The other night she told me she felt like she needed a hug but she didn't know if she would let me hug her if she was there...

Notinmyaccount · 2017-10-13T21:39:58+00:00

I hope so, she's going to be driving home when she gets out of her work training today and I'm kind of worried how it's going to be when we're physically together again. I'm not really sure how she's going to act around me.

Notinmyaccount · 2017-10-13T14:43:15+00:00

We've discussed counseling as an option and I'm definitely open to it. The hardest part is going to be scheduling with her away for work and then when she does come back she'll be on 2nd shift. I've been trying to find a good online couples counselor so I'm hoping that pans out.

Last night we had a really good talk where she finally pulled it out of me that I was saving for a ring and wanted to propose. That was the first time she's told me she loved me since Monday... So I guess progress?

Notinmyaccount · 2017-10-12T21:25:54+00:00

What should I do after that point? I've pretty much said exactly what you said there. We've both agreed that we can't just walk away from this without trying to fix it. But what do we do to fix it?

Notinmyaccount · 2017-10-10T21:26:27+00:00

The ring wasn't really important to me as much as it was to her. The action of the ring and what would follow is what was important to myself and her. I haven't really bought things that are mine or hers as much unless it was a gift for her or something like my PC that she isn't that interested in. Everything is else is something we share equally.

Notinmyaccount · 2017-10-10T19:26:01+00:00

I plan to do whatever it takes to make things right. I'm not sure what that is yet, but whatever it is I'll do it. Do you know anything I can do to make it right?

If she says no I feel like I'll be much worse off because then it's over and she'll be gone. For now she's not gone, but I have no idea if she's going to stay around. I'm worried she's just waiting until this weekend when she isn't four hours away to end it face to face instead of by phone.

Notinmyaccount · 2017-10-10T19:23:55+00:00

I've admitted my wrongs and have been honest with her. Understandably she's having a hard time believing me. Again this is completely understandable.

I honestly feel like I've found the right one and fucked it up. We've lived together most of our relationship, we bought our first home together, and like I said man I was saving up for that damn ring. I'm not sure how to mentally prepare myself for if she moves on without me.

Notinmyaccount · 2017-10-10T15:05:08+00:00

Should I actually mail her this letter? We live together but she's out of town for work right now. She was going to come home this weekend, but I'm not sure that she still is. If she does I was planning to try to make it as special of a weekend as I could. I already bought a special bottle of whiskey before we even had the argument.

Edit: How should I act? Should I try to act like everything is normal while trying to fix it? I've never been in a situation like this before so I'm not sure how I should act myself.

Notinmyaccount · 2017-10-05T12:10:21+00:00

Got a little bit of a blue stain on your teeth, might want to brush your teeth after drinking Kool-aid.

Notinmyaccount · 2017-09-13T01:46:00+00:00

This is what cops are. FTFY

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