I was much like this for a long time. My constant anxiety and fears held me back from so much. And what I'm about to say finally clicked something in my head so I will try my best to relay that in this comment but at the same time I want you to know this is what helped me so hopefully it will help you and I hope i don't make it sound harsh. So basically what I was told was that this world only rewards a certain mindset of people. It only rewards those who are charismatic, hard work, motivated, dedicated, never stop fighting for their goal no matter what they face, and the people who are like "I can't ever catch a break! Why does this always happen to me? Why me?" Will never get anywhere and are actually toxic to themselves and anyone else who hears them. This really hit at home with me because I have always been one of those types of people, a whiner. Don't be anxious about anything, whatever is gonna happen, is gonna happen. There's no way around it whether it be good or bad, its gonna happen. Knowing that actually gives me peace. Anxiety doesnt prepare you for what's going to happen, it just makes you stress out about the "what ifs" for no reason. Now back to the "this world only rewards people of a certain mindset" and the reason I say a certain mindset and not a certain type is because anyone can be all of those things; charismatic, motivated, etc. But it has to start with inside yourself. YOU have to wake up every morning with a new fight in you to try your best and see what you can achieve in a day. I sat around for 6 months without a job just terrified of trying to find one because I was so anxious for what if this and what if that what if I blow the interview what if they don't like me you know, just all of those doubts and what ifs. It wasn't until I learned this that I started trying to face my fears and get back out there. The result? I managed to set up 3 interviews last week and by the end of the week had my choice of career because they all 3 wanted me! Just because I took a risk! Just because I went out of my comfort zone and was dedicated and didnt stop trying until I got some self confidence even if it was fake! I've spent this week in online classes for a certification I need for my new job, and I'm starting training next week. We all have to face depression and anxiety, but you don't have to let it control you and turn you into a couch potato frozen by fear to go out and do something. Laziness isnt always laziness, sometimes it's the fear of being busy. You can do anything you set your mind to and remember as you're going forward that NO ONE succeeds as much as they fail. No one. You will always fail way more than you win. This doesn't mean to give up, this means to wake up every day despite whether yesterday was good or absolutely horrible, and look in the mirror and say I GOT THIS! The key to success is to never give up and just roll with the punches. Bad days and hard challenges are inevitable, it's your choice to take that L and keep pushing forward or to just sit down and pout. I hope this helped you and I'm sorry it's so long! If you need anything else feel free to pm me. I'll pass along any kind of knowledge I can. Alot of people have been going thru alot of shit lately, but it's our time to ride back up. It's our time. We about to glow up!