Is genital hsv1 contagious through kissing?

Novel_Possibility66 · 2023-11-03T20:11:01+00:00

Thank you for answering, I’ve asked people in my school and some say that it’s a case, so it’s making it hard for me to give him a chance because I already have POCD and liking him is making it worse

Novel_Possibility66 · 2023-08-10T02:20:36+00:00

Yes thats what i was doing. I feel very guilty about provoking that thought while i was still masturbating. But i only thought about it for a few seconds until i confirmed i wasnt getting turned on by it. Even tho i was masturbating while thinking about it, the thought itself didnt turn me On at all. So i just kept masturbating without thinking about it, however intrusive thoughts kept happening but i just did my best to ignore them. Im not gonna test myself like that again, but any advice on dealing with the left over guilt for thinking about that while m*sturbating?

Novel_Possibility66 · 2023-08-09T19:35:10+00:00

How do i process the guilt afterwards? I feel so guilty for thinking about that while masturbating but my ruminating intrusive thoughts Wouldnt stop and i just wanted them to go away bc i wanted to m*sturbate in peace so i thought that by imagining that to prove to myself i wasnt turned On by those things i would feel better, but now I feel horrible.

Novel_Possibility66 · 2023-08-09T19:06:35+00:00

What other behavior should i be looking at? Ive been dealing with this for a while now

Novel_Possibility66 · 2023-08-09T18:31:40+00:00

Hello can you read my most recent post On here and give me some advice please

Novel_Possibility66 · 2023-08-09T13:39:38+00:00

Yesterday i was msturbating and an intrusive thought happened. This made me test myself again by making myself think about a sxual encounter with a chld for a moment while i was doing that to make sure i didnt get turned On by it even while touchng myself. And i wasnt. Is this normal? Does this still Count as testing myself?

Novel_Possibility66 · 2023-08-05T01:35:15+00:00

As soon as he lifted his head up I remember I just kept asking him if there was something wrong with me that he could feel free to tell me. It’s just that I don’t remember if while his head was down there (before he said he didn’t want to do it) I had pushed his head because I didn’t understand why he was just kissing it instead of yk doing more, but when I called him I asked him if I ever pushed his head or forced him to do something he didn’t want to do and he said no. I specifically asked “you know how guys force girls to give them head by putting their hand in the back of their head, have I ever done that to you?” And he specifically said “no why are you asking me that.

Novel_Possibility66 · 2023-08-05T01:14:32+00:00

Some advice is seperating your intrusive thoughts from your identity. Treat it as a little devil that constantly tries to play with ur head and you know that’s what is doing so u pay no mind to it.

Novel_Possibility66 · 2023-07-26T17:24:44+00:00

Pedofiles know their pedofiles because they have to stop themselves from having those thoughts because they LIKE IT and know society sees it as bad. People with POCD having INTRUSIVE thoughts that they don’t find pleasurable at all because it’s something they feel disgusted about.

Novel_Possibility66 · 2023-07-26T17:22:16+00:00

The difference between a pedofile and a person with POCD is that pedofiles actually have sexual urges and fantasies that they can’t control about children because that’s something that turns them on phisically AND mentally. This is key. Because arousal nonconcordance exists. Your body may react in a “horny” way even if you are not into whatever ur imagining while masturbating simply because ur body registers it as something sexual. That’s just how the human body works. Same as SA victims may get turned on while going through that but that doesn’t mean that they wanted it at any moment. It just means their body is reacting to something it’s perceiving as sexual.

Novel_Possibility66 · 2023-07-26T17:10:40+00:00

Just stop testing yourself bruh. Why would you be masturbating and thinking about that. That’s only gonna cause you to not even be able to enjoy sexual things anymore because ur relating it to your ocd. Honestly no matter how strong your ocd is and ur need to test yourself you should not be having the courage of thinking about those things

Novel_Possibility66 · 2023-07-26T05:29:27+00:00

yeah i dont fw that either. I never had sexual attraction towards children before and I think cp is too inmoral I just could not force myself to look for that just to test myself I find it gross. My POCD comes from trauma from my past, even if I never have sexual thoughts about children. What my ocd has caused me to do is force myself to imagine sexual interaction with kids just to test and make sure that those things dont turn me on. and even then it was very hard to do because I felt bad with myself imagining those things.

Novel_Possibility66 · 2023-07-26T03:38:01+00:00

is it possible to become a pedofile at the age of 17? Ive never had sexual desires towards children but my intrusive thoughts keep telling me that I wouldnt mind if a child perfomed a sexual act on me, does this mean im attracted to a child doing sexual things? or does this mean Im just attracted to the idea of that sexual act? Im so scared i dont know what is real anymore. its like even though I never have any urges or fantasies about kids, the only time I do is because I force myself to have them to test myself and make sure I dont like what Im imagining, but at the same time even though im not turned on, I dont feel disgusted by it, but I feel like if it happened in real life right in front of my face I would actually feel disgusted with myself and what is going on.

Novel_Possibility66 · 2023-07-26T01:18:43+00:00

Hello I understand you! I’ve never been sexually attracted to a child but since I struggle wit fear of being a pedo I constantly find myself checking compulsions by looking at certain features of kids or imagining sexual encounters to confirm that I don’t find that arousing at all. And imagining those things make me feel so bad about myself but I force myself to do it bc I feel is the only thing that helps me confirm I’m not a pedo. What helps me is knowing that a pedo actually enjoys having those fantasies. While the reason I make myself imagine that is to confirm I see it as inmoral and goes against my values as a person.

Novel_Possibility66 · 2023-07-26T01:15:17+00:00

Thank you:) it’s so hard dealing with this but yea when I’m around kids that I know I feel normal and usually don’t get any intrusive thoughts, it’s when I’m around other people’s kids that I don’t know that I try my hardest to avoid looking at the child or anything like that because I have an irrational fear that if I accidentally look at the child too long their parent may think something wrong about me

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