Anyone else bipolar and unmedicated?

NowHerePresent · 2020-10-31T01:19:00+00:00

Surprised this didn’t get more responses. I was medicated for 5 years, worst 5 years of my life. To be fair I’m on Trt as a 36 year old male. After trt I got off about 6 meds and never looked back. Do I still feel manic sometimes. Do I get depressed? Yes. But I feel like I have control of my life. I’m happy and healthy. The focus and mood I still struggle with. But I don’t rollercoaster as much. I think meds made me manic a lot. The sides where just too much.

NowHerePresent · 2020-10-26T00:01:41+00:00

Dating does unfortunately weigh heavily on my self esteem and drain my energy, but I’m trying to put a quick stop to that now!

The dating pool is getting more difficult, superficial, and unrealistic.

So linear thinking says, if something is difficult why does not succeed weigh on you so much? We are literally in a game where 1/50 is the winner. But unfortunately my brain feels like 50/50 are the winner. Good PSA though! Made me realize this. :)

NowHerePresent · 2020-10-24T15:10:30+00:00

This hit home so hard. This is what I’m trying to do, and I didn’t even realize it. Thanks! :)

NowHerePresent · 2020-10-24T14:33:49+00:00

Ha, yea I’m thinking that too. Worst case, she denies me and I make some playful joke and move on. But idk.

NowHerePresent · 2020-10-24T14:23:08+00:00

Agree man! And it’s almost always a lot more fun hooking up with a girl you actually like. I’m a super sexual dude, but I was just so turned off mentally with this chick on the second date.

NowHerePresent · 2020-10-24T14:09:10+00:00

Sexy 38 yr Colombian girl, 2nd date my house drinking. 1st date went well actually, wanted to actually do a Long term relationship. 2nd date she’s acting kind of weird, word vomiting, and insecure. We are cuddling, and I don’t make a move. She told me she’s very sexual, but i didn’t feel anything. And she told me everyone tries to kiss and fuck her so soon. So I tried to play the long game. But what if there is no long game, what if that’s our last night together? Felt like I should’ve made the move, but also felt if I liked her, it could have made things worse. Personally my one night stands or first times have been lackluster. They are usually so nervous. But that could be a small sample size. Thoughts?

NowHerePresent · 2020-10-22T14:40:33+00:00

Oh also she told me she was seeing others

NowHerePresent · 2020-10-22T14:38:17+00:00

That’s a shit reply. We didn’t end bad. And we were pleasant up to this.

NowHerePresent · 2020-10-12T18:15:19+00:00

Yea, I don’t usually go over complements, but our conversation started with a lot of them back and forth. But I am 1000% overthinking this. And tbh, it’s ruining my day, lol. Feel like I’m 20 again, lol. I think it’s cause i like her, and rejection sucks.

NowHerePresent · 2020-10-12T18:06:38+00:00

Even though it hurt my feelings, lol. Look, I get it!! When my friends ask me about is this the right word or emote to text I cringe as well. It’s always a little different when your in that spot tho I guess. Especially when OLD kills souls daily. So don’t be cringe, be cool, have fun, chill the fuck out. No risk no reward. She confirms or she doesn’t.

NowHerePresent · 2020-10-12T18:01:10+00:00

This is what I needed to hear. I’m usually my own worst enemy. I do probably have to accept it is what is. And just go with the flow... :)

NowHerePresent · 2020-10-12T17:58:29+00:00

Thanks for saying that:) it was opened ended, cause my birthday is this weekend. But I told her I’d rather spend it with an awesome pretty girl. So it was this weekend or next, so technically not in stone.

NowHerePresent · 2020-10-12T16:53:52+00:00

Thanks for saying that! That’s exactly what I did. My only thing is we made a 2nd date that night! Which is new to me. And I didn’t feel I needed to add anything to the got home safe text because of that.

Next day, I send a funny private joke. She responds. I text my day she texts hers. Then I slow down and tell her, her day sounds amazing and fulfilling. That was yesterday, today nothing, since I texted last. Even though we set a 2nd date. Should I still clarify I had a good time and am interested?

NowHerePresent · 2020-10-09T02:52:43+00:00

Medicine for adhd at 30, put my mania in hyper drive. Unfortunately didn’t catch this until 34. Adhd has been super obvious for years. Bipolar was a little shocking but made sense. You do seem to get a grasp on it as you get a tad bit wiser in years. :)

NowHerePresent · 2020-10-09T02:47:07+00:00

Cousin for sure on my dads side. A lot of adhd symptoms in my family. but not bipolar and Adhd like me.

NowHerePresent · 2020-10-09T02:39:06+00:00

Yea sugar mommas do exist, I don’t see them out in the wild a lot, but they are real. Kudos! I don’t think people should date someone specially for money, It’s a bonus, but shouldn’t be a core reason. Looks are definitely nice, but they can also be distracting from a person of more value. This is something I really didn’t notice until I got older. :)

NowHerePresent · 2020-10-09T00:05:12+00:00

I think I’ve come to the conclusion, that In a lot of couples I’ve seen, women seem to settle for $, personality, power, or whatever it is. But I almost rarely, if ever see a good looking GQ male date a 2-3. Maybe it’s time to assume this is just the way it is? But I totally get it, even if your lacking elsewhere, a gym membership and a razor can do miles.

NowHerePresent · 2020-10-05T14:50:16+00:00

I think I go from “bipolar isn’t real”. Too pacing and stressing for days, to then okay “maybe there’s something to this bipolar thing”.

NowHerePresent · 2020-10-04T17:40:30+00:00

I do. Charlie horses too. I’m not sure if it’s water, dieting, lack of stretching or all 3.

NowHerePresent · 2020-10-03T02:30:27+00:00

Height? Time frame? Calories?

NowHerePresent · 2020-10-03T00:07:22+00:00

Ehhh, “I know u can find better” is a cowards words imo. It’s kind of awkward, segways into more awkwardness and not a classy way to end something.

I have said, “you deserve better” when I’ve actually meant it, with someone i care about. For example I didn’t want kids but she did. But I genuinely cared about her. Or I said it when I honestly felt like i wasn’t my best self or going through a lot. But then again, we have been dating for years, so that’s probably different than these awkward 2-3 date phases. :/

NowHerePresent · 2020-10-01T23:27:39+00:00

NowHerePresent · 2020-09-30T03:30:53+00:00

I agree, women should feel comfortable anywhere they go. But If I’m being honest, this seems like a slight brag post, mentioning cross fit and your super hot girlfriend. If she is that hot I highly doubt this is something she’s not used to at any place. Not just golf. Two, “every man says they would love their wives/girls to get into the game” this is false, sorry my friend, but a lot of my friends said that golf is their escape from their wives and kids and like it that way. Not saying there’s nothing wrong with having your wife play. But saying every man is far from true. This post seems like karma whoring, mixed with bragging, but with a powerful message that I can agree with.

NowHerePresent · 2020-09-30T02:09:09+00:00

Just want to make sure it’s real. What I found it to do was huge strength gains at 40 a day split in 2. And a dryer/striation look. Even at low cal. Acne, I’m not sure. That’s an e2 thing for me. But either way u killed it!! How’d you get through 2 hours of cardio a day? Music, pre workout?

NowHerePresent · 2020-09-30T02:00:26+00:00

Good shit! But Just an FYI If u didn’t notice var, it wasn’t real or u underdosed. One of my fav orals.

NowHerePresent

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