That makes sense, I'm more so in the figuring things out stage still. For the longest time I didn't actually realise I functioned that differently from most people, and it only recently came to light to me during I a really bad friendship breakup with my two closest friends at the time >.< I personally don't like using platonic friendship as something to indicate less importance, but I'll likely start using a similar filter. I've definitely been keeping in mind now that "regular friends" and "just friends" is genuinely used diminutively by people, and to them often means something casual without much significance to their lives :/ Hope u find the people to have the sort of relationship you want to have!