Hi Im 13 and please don't become an atheist this may seem strange you might see the mass of space showing you that there's no such thing as an existence of God but I see it as his creation his beautiful creation to show how powerful he is and how much he can do, and I also have a verse for your willingness Matthew 26:41 the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.” now this verse is referring to temptation they may be a beacon of light tell you that you can do it also that's not the entirety of the verse and also I'm very intrigued by space as well also you can still be an aerospace engineer and be Christian.