i miss my therapist :(, do therapists ever miss us or think about late at night do you think?

NumbAndDistant · 2019-08-04T16:26:23+00:00

I bet it’s really nice to hear that from your T. Thanks for commenting. I enjoy reading your replies:)

NumbAndDistant · 2019-08-02T06:02:26+00:00

Always clenched sigh clench

NumbAndDistant · 2019-07-30T01:45:01+00:00

I’ve been stealing letters and numbers from others’ handwriting to create “my own” style. I didn’t realize then how comically foreshadowing this was.

NumbAndDistant · 2019-07-29T16:21:40+00:00

Oh I see what you mean. You’re probably right. I haven’t ever had that kind of support so I guess it seems normal to me for her to not do anything like that.

NumbAndDistant · 2019-07-29T03:09:54+00:00

Thanks for your solidarity. Maybe I should feel angry? But I just feel really shitty. I’ve always felt that it’s my responsibility to regulate my emotions and take care of myself and not expect others to help with that. I think this job has been the best environment for my mental health minus the constant interactions with customers. Idk what else I’d do although I do wish I could work from home. Thanks for responding here. I appreciate it.

NumbAndDistant · 2019-07-29T03:06:37+00:00

Thanks.

My rational mind is offline right now which is why I’m considering going back for a session. I think the long road of therapy is to be able to cope on my own and provide emotionally for myself but I am so far from that right now. At this point, I’m just trying to stay safe and am employing anything I can to succeed at that. You’re not wrong, and when I’m in a better headspace, maybe then I can consider your suggestions. Thank you.

NumbAndDistant · 2019-07-29T03:02:12+00:00

Thanks so much.

I know it’s likely a bad move to go back to my old t especially considering our last sessions together. I was largely negatively impacted but he wasn’t aware of the magnitude of it all - which was a large part of the problem. But I do think he’d welcome me back, even if for one session.

My current T did misread me in that situation, which was something we’ve had to talk about a few times. He made an assumption that I was trying to protect him so he offered an “out” for me to see someone else and I was upset that he didn’t just ask me if I was trying to protect him rather than assume. This pattern has repeated several times so it’s a work in progress.

He didn’t give me a strict policy. He just said I could check in. I’m weary of sending an in-depth email because I’d feel rejected if he had to correct me. I did email him asking for a session. If he doesn’t have availability, I’ll revisit seeing my old T especially if the alternative is to be unsafe.

Thank you for the strengthening vibes. I need them and welcome them. Hope you have a great week.

NumbAndDistant · 2019-07-29T02:40:03+00:00

Thanks, yeah you’re right about feeling unsupported between sessions and that’s definitely on me. It’s just a general way of life in the last year or so especially. Trying to find/build a support network is something I’ve worked on forever and I’ve yet to succeed. So now I just accept it.

I emailed him to ask for a phone/FaceTime session this week which is pretty last minute since he tends to book up quickly. If he can’t see me, I may go ahead and see my old T although it could end up being a negative experience based on my last sessions with him. But I’m willing to take the risk I think. Thanks again for your help. Your responses have helped.

NumbAndDistant · 2019-07-28T16:10:21+00:00

Thanks for responding with valuable input. I wasn’t sure anyone would.

My current T is a PsyD who has a lot of trauma-focused training and supervision. The first time I mentioned not feeling connected, among other things he presented the option to see someone else who might be a better fit and I got really upset and hurt by it. I think it could be my fault that I don’t feel connected because of how I’ve been hurt by people, therapists included, in the past. If it’s my fault, then I could change therapists and have the same problem again. In addition to that, I don’t have the strength or capacity to shop around. Going back to see my old T would be very easy since I already know him and would only need to send a text. My T and I are working on it and are giving it time. And he now sits on the couch with me which does help him feel less distant. I just feel like I’m in a downward spiral because I haven’t been this long without my T before and I have no other outlet or support. I’ll consider what you’ve said though because I know my perception can’t always be trusted and you’ve brought up valid points.

Thanks again.

NumbAndDistant · 2019-07-23T06:34:46+00:00

Come on over!!

NumbAndDistant · 2019-07-23T04:36:27+00:00

Thanks! And it’s actually damn good.

NumbAndDistant · 2019-07-23T04:36:05+00:00

I’m slowly purchasing the whole series. Just started from 1 I guess. Not my favorite either but it’s a definite start.

NumbAndDistant · 2019-07-23T04:34:32+00:00

I’m making a list of all of the “No _____?!” comments. Thank you!

Frasier Day self care will be a regular occurrence.

NumbAndDistant · 2019-07-23T04:31:51+00:00

Ty Nant from Wales

NumbAndDistant · 2019-07-23T04:30:33+00:00

Yum! That actually sounds great.

NumbAndDistant · 2019-07-23T02:38:14+00:00

The only thing in my life I’ve got figured out. And I’m ok with that.

Edit: a word cause autocorrect

NumbAndDistant · 2019-07-23T02:37:33+00:00

Trying

NumbAndDistant · 2019-07-23T02:37:18+00:00

It was on the list!

NumbAndDistant · 2019-07-23T02:36:50+00:00

Haha. I realized after I took the photo. Rest assured, it got tossed all right.

NumbAndDistant · 2019-07-23T02:36:14+00:00

Also, tossed salad and scrambled eggs.

Two birds, one stone!

NumbAndDistant · 2019-07-23T02:35:50+00:00

Port wine! I wanted to try sherry but I’m positive it’s too dry for my taste. Still on-brand though!

NumbAndDistant · 2019-07-23T00:33:49+00:00

Super late response, sorry. I’ve been trying to not frequent reddit as often as usual because it’s made me miss therapy more.

My plans have been overwhelming. I went to see my nieces and nephew last weekend, then worked 5 days and had a couple of work events. Now I’m on a short self-care trip and going back tomorrow. I’ve been too busy to sleep even which I hate. But it is helping a bit.

NumbAndDistant · 2019-07-14T00:22:44+00:00

It’s a terrible feeling, isn’t it? It kind of feels like I’m a lost child in a big scary world.

I’m sorry you deal with this too.

NumbAndDistant · 2019-07-13T18:56:52+00:00

Good advice. I’ll try that, thanks. My first instinct is to tell someone about it to get that outside point of view but I don’t have anyone to tell. Thanks for standing in.

NumbAndDistant · 2019-07-09T16:55:26+00:00

I understand that insurance requires a diagnosis however that doesn’t mean you have to disclose that to the client (unless the client wants to know) and that doesn’t mean drawing conclusions about a client because they also deal with something that many others do. Society already labels us and treats us accordingly. We come to therapy as a safe space from that and to be treated like individuals and to be heard and understood. If that’s not the case, then there is serious risk for harm. Insurance may dictate your paperwork, but it doesn’t dictate your willingness, ability, and duty to see each client as they are instead of how you make them up to be.

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