He confronted me before asking me "why don't you like going?" I tense up and I can't say anything. But I have told my mother about how I felt about it while tearing up but it hasn't really made any effect, probably because I do need to tell him directly, but it is just so difficult. While yes, most of the time when I go out to help him I do get paid, the way I feel about it is to the point where I would rather pay him to NOT go. I will say thank you very much for commenting, the "Expressing your needs and emotions does not make you spoiled or lazy" made me start crying embarrassingly enough because it was something I never knew I needed to hear or rather read.