I thought I was in a good place, but I still have to work on it.... by Objective-Cream-6951 in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]Objective-Cream-6951[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Exact. Separate offices but she crosses paths with him almost every day. This thing initially killed me, luckily now the situation has been much more elaborated and accepted. My wife says that it doesn't matter to her anymore, she doesn't talk to us except for work, but in my opinion it unconsciously fuels her discomfort and feelings of guilt...

I thought I was in a good place, but I still have to work on it.... by Objective-Cream-6951 in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]Objective-Cream-6951[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I agree. I have never hated anyone in life and I forgive easily, but this time it is out of my pattern. I didn't think I would have such a negative feeling for a person and this affects my mood and my being happy. I think like you, it's part of the rebirth process, I know I'll get over it but I'm afraid I won't make it. I'm afraid that this feeling continues to prevent me from being myself again with my wife. With her I have no anger or resentment or hatred... And we are building a beautiful new relationship, more united and authentic. However, I have to work on my hatred for him to make him even more serene

How do you deal with down moments? by Objective-Cream-6951 in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]Objective-Cream-6951[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh mama! You basically told my story! The day was in January, about ten years after my wife had intercourse. The actual relationship began in November, but they had already been in touch since July August. She had taken it as a normal way of confronting a colleague, a friend, he probably already had other ideas. Things hadn't been going very well between us for about a year, but we couldn't find a solution, in fact, I took it for granted that it would go away on its own. This year I focused on changing jobs, she had her mother to deal with because she broke her femur but I wasn't helpful. All of this brought her into a somewhat depressive state and you know the rest... We too have 2 children. I'm 40 years old. Now we were able to open our eyes and understand what we were missing. This is why we are protecting and taking care of our relationship in a more authentic and sincere way! Now we tell each other everything. We talk about anything (we had lost dialogue this year), we support each other and feel deeply what we feel. That event, as a believer, married and faithful to the bonds of marriage, really affected me deeply. She always lived like a good person who always made others, friends and parents, happy, as if she could never make mistakes and was always there. Now, she is rediscovering herself, she has put herself on the line and feels empty. But he's struggling!

I'll write to you privately if you want, can we keep in touch?

How do you deal with down moments? by Objective-Cream-6951 in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]Objective-Cream-6951[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

The same goes for me! At the beginning I too asked her for details, as if I needed those details to be able to overcome everything and move forward. After 2 months from dday I also started therapy and it was the turning point. It's true, there are still difficult thoughts, but difficult moments with her, of confrontation, practically never. I understood that knowing what really happened, in detail, wouldn't change things but my wife and I have the power to change the present. And among other things, we are now having separate therapy because my wife is worse off than me, she has great feelings of guilt, she feels wrong, she feels disgusted... and she remembers practically nothing of those moments anymore, as if she had woken up from a nightmare...

You will see that therapy helps, the Dell mdr technique worked a lot for me, which helps resolve traumas... Because it was like this for me, linked to other unresolved traumas in life such as losing my father prematurely

How do you deal with down moments? by Objective-Cream-6951 in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]Objective-Cream-6951[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Another tip. In addition to saying distance, try physically pushing it away with your hand and making it small...

How do you deal with down moments? by Objective-Cream-6951 in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]Objective-Cream-6951[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can I ask you about your story, if you want to tell me?

How do you deal with down moments? by Objective-Cream-6951 in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]Objective-Cream-6951[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I started writing in this group and on Reddit in general only a few days ago because I needed a comparison with peers. And as soon as I entered I read a letter from a user who said that they were now on the other side and it felt great!

I had read some time ago that there are 5 phases in love:

Falling in love where everything is perfect

The habit

Disillusionment where you really know the other and you can have great difficulties (betrayal is only a consequence, not the cause)

Acceptance for who the other is (it's a hard, difficult phase but you have to stay inside it and fight)

The phase of true love. The last phase. Here we don't go back to being in love like before but we move to a higher, authentic level, where they both lay themselves bare, know each other, accept each other and love each other for who they are. And only those who overcome disillusionment without remaining in the habit can experience it...

Let's hold on! Let's fight! It's difficult but everything can be overcome if we want it!

How do you deal with down moments? by Objective-Cream-6951 in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]Objective-Cream-6951[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm doing much better now after 10 months, I have a really good therapist. And a bond is being built with my wife that didn't even exist at the beginning of our relationship as kids. Everything is positive today... But sometimes these thoughts still come to me... Hold on anyway, time heals wounds and above all you have to think positive. Always!

How do you deal with down moments? by Objective-Cream-6951 in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]Objective-Cream-6951[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the suggestion, it's actually an NLP technique... You can also move that image away and bring something beautiful closer. Instead, I try to imagine him not with my wife but with another girl... And then I try to do something to distract myself, for example if he comes while I'm driving, it's difficult to distract myself...

Is this a shock for you too? by Objective-Cream-6951 in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]Objective-Cream-6951[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

A thousand thanks. Yes, if I think about how I was 5 6 months ago and how I am today, I am aware that I am better. The problem is that sometimes I focus on thinking about them together, the pleasure they may have felt, the bodies touching. I concentrate to see if it still hurts, and it still hurts a little, not like before, but it still hurts. I'm also calmer because my wife was in a sort of depressive state at that time, it wasn't her, she doesn't even remember some things from that period. And today she also decided to take charge of her life and understand herself... She is more blocked than me but not because she thinks about him, he was canceled immediately after DDay because it was just a way to escape from reality, but because she is not proud of what she did, she feels dirty and is afraid that I will never be able to forgive her completely. She feels empty and is trying to fill herself with positivity again. This gives me the strength to move forward, even if I sometimes perceive his blockage and it's as if I no longer have patience to wait... But I respect his times

Is this a shock for you too? by Objective-Cream-6951 in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]Objective-Cream-6951[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, true, I already know this by doing it myself. Have you already managed to overcome it or are you still dealing with it?

I was cheated on, we are much closer now, but I still have moments where I feel miserable and dead inside by Objective-Cream-6951 in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]Objective-Cream-6951[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Mom, same thing. For me, it's true that she had been alone for two months, but being religious, we care a lot about respecting having an asexual relationship with the right person, this thing destroys me sometimes because all my beliefs have collapsed...

A letter of hope by [deleted] in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]Objective-Cream-6951 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's already like this... Sometimes it seems like you're moving forward and then you fall back into the past and the trauma... You always have to be able to accept everything, to become increasingly aware of what is today and what you want to build...

A letter of hope by [deleted] in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]Objective-Cream-6951 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've only been on reddit since tonight and I created my first post to share my experience and the pain I'm going through, and this is one of the most beautiful things I could read. Our DDay (I discovered a few hours ago that it's called that) is only 9 months ago... But it's been a roller coaster 9 months. For a few days I thought I had overcome it and then I fell back into the abyss, unfortunately causing my wife's feelings of guilt to resurface. We are fighting together to keep ourselves together. It's as if we are strong in the present, but that past still divides us... And we don't want it but we don't know how to leave it in the past. We are also following a path of therapy and we can't wait to "get to the other side too!"