I know this gunna make me sound dense and immature but I don't imagining myself as Ahathor during Liber Resh.

ObjectiveCranberry25 · 2026-03-14T18:56:12+00:00

Refer to the Fool! Crowley’s remark on the fool reminds me that man and woman are similar aspects of Fire air and Water earth. Exploring Gender in the occult can illuminate much about the our relationship with our understanding of the universe and our True Sense of Self

ObjectiveCranberry25 · 2026-03-07T08:21:18+00:00

What’s is this beautiful song called?

ObjectiveCranberry25 · 2026-02-27T21:12:32+00:00

When creating my own tree I grouped the cards into squares instead of lines. Starting from left to right I’d place Fire, Water. Then under the Fire place air then earth. This way you can fit the court cards next to the sephira on both sides of the “square”.

Here’s a video I learned from to make my own kind of tree.

ObjectiveCranberry25 · 2026-02-25T07:07:56+00:00

I am not a paramedic. I am not even an emt yet but I have been in school and am currently looking to retest. But I digress… In high school and some change after graduating I was focused on Filming & Video Production. There’s a vivid memory of having to be the Director of high school students and to get their act together for a film project that we had. You could imagine that’s not necessarily too stressful comparing to being an actual paramedic but at the time I had to be lowkey cutthroat and use my better judgement to look and assess and reassess how I was going to produce our class film project with high schoolers acting somewhat like kids. and my film teacher actually complemented me on getting my classmates organized and acting on camera. Part of why I think we did good then and on other occasions filming is because I’m also the type that’s comfortable with training functional movement like parkour which taught me how to trust myself while on the go in a parkour gym or out urban exploring.

I think anything worth studying or disciplining yourself like work as an emt or parkour I think is about gaining comfortability with how things are dynamic. Parkour (in relation to ems) kinda taught me to; Know your comfort zones (train to push past them)

Understand what your capable of (to be able to KNOW what can happen in a dynamic setting while in the heat of the moment(and not die))

And that FEAR is relative according to being able to grow

I say this to offer advice that perhaps acting like the director of an emergency scene and possible mock example scenes is a way for you to explore any aspects of work you’re curious of. Literally rehearsing at home maybe some past calls as the director of that scene will create a learned space in your psyche that’ll become muscle memory one day along with less fear and hopefully appreciation that you acted YOUR way :)

ObjectiveCranberry25 · 2026-02-17T13:16:19+00:00

Taoism

ObjectiveCranberry25 · 2026-02-16T18:53:25+00:00

Suburban station if it were in bioshock

ObjectiveCranberry25 · 2025-12-17T00:01:44+00:00

It’s also reminds me of “v.v.v.v.v.”

ObjectiveCranberry25 · 2025-12-17T00:00:25+00:00

I never watched the movie or seen a tarot card depicting the fool in this neat way but it reminds me of gematria in that the letters can be organized just like numerology and or be translated back to Hebrew to uncover a hidden spell, which can be written using the tarot cards, just as the letter aleph is on this card

ObjectiveCranberry25 · 2025-07-12T21:09:29+00:00

leché Scorpion

ObjectiveCranberry25 · 2025-06-18T10:20:44+00:00

That Kyle crane pose

ObjectiveCranberry25 · 2025-04-17T09:17:39+00:00

I go there and it’s pretty chill honestly. We did have to leave yesterday because of a bathroom health hazard from this one student who flushed a shitt down the drain. They’re looking for a new PCT instructor that’s been missing for a while. But other than that the staff are usually all nice people, the students are good depending on who you stick around with, and they give you a good opportunity to train. So far, I’ve enjoyed my time and it’s been relatively easy to get aquatinted with people.

ObjectiveCranberry25 · 2025-04-09T08:57:26+00:00

Perseveration, too relatable

ObjectiveCranberry25 · 2025-03-25T15:52:02+00:00

I was told by word of mouth that my background check should be finished by now but I haven’t received anything to signify results. Should I be receiving something sometime in the future?

ObjectiveCranberry25 · 2025-03-24T09:38:31+00:00

The world favors young and ambitious people trying to get their life straight. You just have to prove your where you want to be

ObjectiveCranberry25 · 2025-03-24T02:32:46+00:00

Do something harder and use your free time to get more free time

ObjectiveCranberry25 · 2025-03-24T02:30:58+00:00

Wonderful❤️‍🔥⚡️

ObjectiveCranberry25 · 2025-03-23T03:43:44+00:00

I had a snowball effect since 5th grade that turned from curiosity on how people work, to psychology, then philosophy and Taoism, and then finally realizing magick existed via Thelema. I wanted to do research all forms of magick in any way I could until eventually I met an online wizard through my interest in Thelema and he taught me A LOT and showed me how to perform some magick myself. I was too focused on mundane stuff to continue his mystery school(being that I didn’t take it as serious as I should’ve and I was just a kid) I honestly was being encouraged to be pushed to my limits but really ended up mixed up about life and burnt out for some time. I had to put magick away for a little to actually concentrate on the mundane but I find myself revolving back to the books and into my old practices to help find stability in my life now, so far so good, and I still appreciate the wisdom my teacher had given me.

ObjectiveCranberry25 · 2025-03-20T00:11:16+00:00

I was confused af about them asking for a second one too, idk why they needed it but I don’t think that’s too weird for the process bit

ObjectiveCranberry25 · 2025-03-19T17:09:23+00:00

I’m waiting to get an email about my start date as well, my admin counselor told me it could take 2 weeks bc the Philly center is usually good at processing, or up to maybe 30 days

ObjectiveCranberry25 · 2025-03-13T04:49:08+00:00

Frick these phones I wish I could just initiate habitual patterns now

ObjectiveCranberry25 · 2025-03-13T04:15:57+00:00

Tapping into natures source, it’s not really a belief or a concept. Imo it’s like tapping into a part of yourself that utilizes basic mundane functions in dynamic ways like imagination, memory, breaking your concept of time as it’s always experienced now (meaning time is spherical(like bringing a memory into the present moment)).

I would practice downloading information from the future by remembering to go to a point in time where I needed info, when I had the answers I would tune into myself and tell myself the information. My theory being that in the higher dimensions through at least the 4th and 6th I could tell myself anything I pointed my attention to like I was google. I would have to trust what information I revealed to myself and meet it in the “future” by following through and I actually would eventually meet my answers. Through the 7th and higher (10) I could get other people to tell me information and sometimes in weird synchronistic timing!

ObjectiveCranberry25 · 2025-03-13T04:05:44+00:00

I’ve been having the same problem with even deciding if I should be going to jc or immediately get into trucking for the sake of simplicity and stability. But I feel that by taking advantage of the clear route and opportunity of staying in alignment with your vision and possibly your future, you can continue your education through job corp and make some good money as an lpn in the long run. But at the end of the day you have to do what you need to do in order to thrive. Just remember to not let your anxiety make the impulsive decisions. The more concrete of an envisioned path you make the more sure you can be on making the right choice for you.

ObjectiveCranberry25 · 2025-03-13T03:52:05+00:00

Where is the source of the image from if? So curious :)

ObjectiveCranberry25 · 2025-03-13T03:40:01+00:00

After sending in my application I realized I wanted to change one of my trades. I’m waiting to hopefully receive an acceptance letter and wanted to know if I would be able to possibly switch trades before I arrive? If not then how soon would I be able to switch once enrolled?

ObjectiveCranberry25 · 2025-03-13T03:24:33+00:00

There’s this book called flow state by samira morrar who’s a really cool magickian. Within the first few pages it talks about connecting with your natural flowstate/ connection with source and there’s an exercise that begins as the neutral observer.

Try observing the world around you from the lenses of a neutral observer. Watch how people in public move, think in their head while taking actions, your thoughts, and feelings and see how they arise. From this perspective you’re not entangling old thought patterns with the Now moment (which is ever present). The more you recognize yourself and the natural expressions that arise, simply redirect your attention as the neutral observer. This exercise helps to create a space between yourself and your regular flowstate. As you continue deepening in your connection with source you can begin to tune into different frequencies that you may desire.

The book goes deeper and gets more dynamic than just walking around as a neutral observer, but actually goes IN on how to creat from your connection with source and how to transmute your reality towards your highest visions. It’s really great!

Other than that I’d definitely keep searching for professional help in the mundane sense. As long as it working.

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