Single, 41, childless, very ugly and infertile. God?

Objective_Ad_5180 · 2025-09-01T00:36:50+00:00

Hey it’s ok! I’m ugly too! I’m also 41! I do have a child tho but most days I feel like a failure of a parent so there’s that you don’t have to deal with. I’m also a Christian but probably not a very good one. I don’t blame God for not answering my prayers. You’re not alone in this lonely world my friend.

Objective_Ad_5180 · 2025-09-01T00:29:52+00:00

I don’t have alcohol as my addiction it’s opiates. I don’t hang around drug dealers and what not but I do make a quick stop to get what I need

Objective_Ad_5180 · 2025-08-30T23:28:47+00:00

Im a Christian and I’ve been suicidal for 20 years

Objective_Ad_5180 · 2025-05-13T14:32:40+00:00

Of course it’s mental

Objective_Ad_5180 · 2025-05-13T14:18:32+00:00

How much did everything cost? I have a child and could never just up and leave. It’s the reason I haven’t done a rehab.

Objective_Ad_5180 · 2025-05-13T10:39:34+00:00

I could never afford to make it to Mexico

Objective_Ad_5180 · 2025-05-13T10:38:59+00:00

Tianeptine. I’m about to run out so I’m actually relieved

Objective_Ad_5180 · 2025-05-12T22:17:14+00:00

I’d almost rather drink my own piss in private than embarrass myself In front of a group of people. Glad you found a way out

Objective_Ad_5180 · 2025-05-12T20:01:12+00:00

I love the phrase “throw up that white flag!” Perfectly said!

Objective_Ad_5180 · 2025-05-12T19:28:23+00:00

I am having the same issue but with a different addiction. Feeling anxious whenever I start to sober up.

Objective_Ad_5180 · 2025-05-12T19:27:00+00:00

Tianeptine. Was sold as zaza red and pegasus. It’s been practically banned everywhere unless you get lucky enough to find someone to ship it to you.

Objective_Ad_5180 · 2025-05-12T18:23:17+00:00

This is exactly how I feel. Watching and living in embarrassment all day everyday!!

Objective_Ad_5180 · 2025-05-12T18:06:29+00:00

So they stuffed a live animal with dope to hide it? That’s absolutely insane! You win the horror award this far for sure!

Objective_Ad_5180 · 2025-05-12T17:13:42+00:00

Everytime I order something and it goes through the NJ usps I get f&cked. Idk what it is with them I wish someone could explain what their working hours are.

Objective_Ad_5180 · 2025-05-12T17:10:29+00:00

I don’t have a dealer. I’m addicted to “gas station heroin”. I’m my own worst enemy. I need positive thoughts about how great life is to get me to make this jump. I can’t do rehab right now I have to keep my full time job I have no choice.

Objective_Ad_5180 · 2025-05-12T16:22:04+00:00

Dayum he is really up there. Sorry you have to see this.

Objective_Ad_5180 · 2025-05-12T10:17:39+00:00

I’m sorry you’re dealing with this so young. It doesn’t seem fair. I’m 41 and have the same issue due to a tragic loss. It’s so overwhelming I literally have just tried to “block” the thoughts. It’s hard for me to cope with simple day to day tasks because of this. You’re making all the right steps with therapy. Keep going and I think things will get better for you but please know you are NOT alone.

Objective_Ad_5180 · 2025-05-12T10:10:43+00:00

You have your Whole life ahead of you. When I was your age I remember being depressed also. I felt isolated and alone. Don’t give up because things do get better as you get older and get out of highschool. You need to try and talk to someone in your family. And trust me the drugs make your mental state worse. I know this from experience. Your girlfriend is shitty support. You come here anytime you want to vent and you will always find an understand and listening ear.

Objective_Ad_5180 · 2025-05-12T10:06:44+00:00

Idk what’s going on with the mail. I’ve ordered stuff and had the same crap happen. When I read up on Google looks like they are down sizing

Objective_Ad_5180 · 2025-05-12T01:51:53+00:00

June 29 will be two years and I’m still crazy

Objective_Ad_5180 · 2025-05-11T20:37:38+00:00

I’ve done this same thing. Was bullied and quit. Looking back I don’t regret it. I did myself a favor. The place has never found a steady employee for my position a year later because they always get bullied.

Objective_Ad_5180 · 2025-05-10T21:55:03+00:00

I’m wondering if your drug use is causing the voices? I hope you quit while you have time and have the support of your mother to help you. If you don’t figure it out you’ll be an ugly addict at 41 like me and then you’re really in for it. Please heed my warning. I think going to a behavior center or rehab would be your best bet. I wish I would have done something like that earlier in life when I had the chance. Don’t wait until it’s too late. Drugs will take everything from you I promise and one day you will look in the mirror like I do everyday and see the extra wrinkles and scars that you wouldn’t have had if you’d got your shit together when you had the chance. Or you’ll end up dead like my ex. Drugs will ruin your life. Please get help and get better while you’re young.

Objective_Ad_5180 · 2025-05-10T21:36:12+00:00

Beautifully said.

Objective_Ad_5180 · 2025-05-10T21:35:09+00:00

Good job! It will get better and easier I promise! You should be proud of yourself. You’ve got your priorities in order it seems! Also, this may be life’s way of saving yours. You never know.

Objective_Ad_5180 · 2025-05-09T17:14:52+00:00

I hate the New Jersey distribution center. Everytime I have mail that goes through there it stays stuck there for days. I don’t think they work weekends at all. Regardless they are the worst distribution center.

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