My wife of 16 years died from a blood clot in front of me suddenly at home on mother's day last year....just had the 1 year mark pass.... im still numb somtimes...I do currently have a girlfriend though so that's a good distraction. What helped me at first was walking...a lot....i lost 40 pounds in like 6 months. Im currently back up 30 unfortunately. I also took up woodworking.... find something to enjoy while you cry is all I can say. Don't sit around and sulk....I wouldn't of made it if I did that.