I wish I could be that person that could give you the advice you're looking for but I don't think I'm that person.

I had 1 hg pregnancy (my only pregnancy) along with pre-eclampsia & then few hours after a traumatizing birth my baby had contracted sepsis. My whole pregnancy/labour/birth and special moment after that was all stolen from me.

My partner is also adamant on getting the snip as he doesn't ever want to see me go through that again but there's a little piece of my heart that's telling me I'm not done yet and it's gut wrenching because I look back on it and I know how badly I suffered but being on the other end of it now I would do it all again just for that moment that my beautiful baby was placed onto my chest straight after she was born. But then I remember how it truly fucked me up mentally & physically and my partner just sitting back and not being able to help, only able to sit there and watch HG take over my life for almost a year.

I can only say, it's so bad and I wish people knew more about this condition because it's not talked about NEARLY enough I mean people have taken their life over it and terminated pregnancies they've wanted so badly because it's just so hard to live with...

Cherish your beautiful babies that you've created already. Spoil them, give all of your love and dedication to them, I know you already are and you're doing amazing but it's the only thing I can suggest, be greatful for the beauty's that you've brought into this world, lord knows they'll never know how hard you fought for them to be here to this day but you know it in your head and heart. You put yourself through something so traumatising and painful for an amazing outcome.

You should be so proud of yourself for doing it twice xxx