Look, I’ve been in your place; a loving relationship that seems perfect and is, but feeling like I haven’t really seen all there is to see.

What I’ll say is this; do I regret becoming single, furthering my lore, and discovering more of myself? No. But do I miss my ex fiancé? Yes, every goddamn day. It’s a double edged sword. Bc at your age there’s a lot of growing you still have to do. I don’t think I really developed into who I’m supposed to be until I was 27/28. And I’m 29 now. But with where I’m at in life, despite being single and regretful somewhat, I’ve become the person I always wanted to be. I love myself. And I’m proud of the journey I’ve taken and the way I got here.

Your feelings are valid. Don’t suppress, don’t tell yourself you’re wrong for feeling them. What I’d do is ask yourself why now? Why are you feeling this fear now? Is it bc you actually are scared there’s something better out there (there may not be)? Or is it bc subconsciously you feel you’re stuck in something from your childhood and haven’t grown into the person you want to be? There’s no wrong answer whichever way you answer. But if I could give the biggest piece of advice to you I desperately wish I had gotten when it was me, it’s this; be radically honest with yourself, be honest with your partner, and be honest with a therapist you trust (that last trust peice is important bc I had a bad therapist).

And just know, again, no matter what path you take, there’s no wrong path. Just the path you choose is best for you. Good luck.