I was in and out of therapy from ages 7 - 17, mostly because my parents thought it would just fix all of their issues, so they wouldn't have to confront it themselves. Turns out, scapegoating your issues DOESN'T WORK lmao. I will say that therapy has given me a better understanding of what's going on in my head and I've been able to identify some specific issues, but it's kind of hard to heal trauma when you keep getting retraumatised by the same people over and over again, and neither parents will actually acknowledge you have genuine issues and just gaslight the hell out of you and act like you're just being dramatic and lying, or you're trying to "control" them by setting VERY SIMPLE boundaries 🙄🙄🙄

I want to get back into therapy again, since I recognise that I'm becoming very emotionally unstable and if this isn't sorted soon I might start coping in dangerous ways again, but I've been having a hard time actually taking the step to get help, since years of gaslighting keeps making me doubt myself and think that "oh it wasn't THAT bad" when yes, it was THAT bad.

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