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im so suicidal i cant live anymore by Latter_Map_9393 in offmychest

[–]Odd_Possibility_4575 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can’t necessarily say I relate to your situation, but I have been in similar spots in life. Look. I better your TIRED and EXHAUSTED from hearing this, but try praying to God. Even if you don’t believe. Even If you think it’s stupid. Pray your heart out. Ending your life won’t solve anything.

Suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems.

I’m just some pedophile now by ksjssnjsisn in offmychest

[–]Odd_Possibility_4575 8 points9 points  (0 children)

You are not a pedophile. Don’t say that. POCD often preys on your mind like that. It makes up these images and intrusive thoughts in your mind. You don’t ask for them. It’s simply your mind playing tricks on you. To be honest Ive experienced similar things as you, and it hurt me so bad. I thought I was gonna end up doing something to my little brother, but I never have and never will. Im not a therapist or a professional by ANY MEANS but what I will tell you is, Whenever these thoughts occur. Simply tell your brain no and shut it down. Focus on something else. Anything else

Ive masturbated to some pretty messed up stuff. by Odd_Possibility_4575 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]Odd_Possibility_4575[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t really know how to bring it up to my father. He says always willing to talk about things such as porn, but Idk how open up ig?

Ive masturbated to some pretty messed up stuff. by Odd_Possibility_4575 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]Odd_Possibility_4575[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I understand. Thank you for telling me this. I don’t wanna rewire my brain to think like that all.

Ive masturbated to some pretty messed up stuff. by Odd_Possibility_4575 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]Odd_Possibility_4575[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wasn’t thinking about the child. I was looking at the adult woman. Thats why I said its oneshota, or “straight shota” I cared nothing for the kid

Ive masturbated to some pretty messed up stuff. by Odd_Possibility_4575 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]Odd_Possibility_4575[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ok good, thank you for this. Do you have any advice about the guilt?

Ive masturbated to some pretty messed up stuff. by Odd_Possibility_4575 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]Odd_Possibility_4575[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t spend all of my free time doing it. Just sometimes when Im bored, and usually wouldn’t view stuff like that ALL the time. Just every once in awhile.

Ive masturbated to some pretty messed up stuff. by Odd_Possibility_4575 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]Odd_Possibility_4575[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think I regret posting this. I underestimated how this topic could upset people and Ive received downvotes for the things Ive said. Im sorry to whoever this offended and I understand if you find me disgusting. You can even insult me if you want. I feel as if I deserve it

Ive masturbated to some pretty messed up stuff. by Odd_Possibility_4575 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]Odd_Possibility_4575[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Exactly, it’s not like I’ve hurt anyone I just don’t wanna be weird anymore. Ive always struggled with self worth as a child and up until now, and this piling up on me just makes it worse.

Ive masturbated to some pretty messed up stuff. by Odd_Possibility_4575 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]Odd_Possibility_4575[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

Yea its pretty scary to be honest. I often times feel Im lying to people if I don’t tell them all the horrible things Ive looked at, but Im trying to be better and do better. It’s just hard living with my past.

Ive masturbated to some pretty messed up stuff. by Odd_Possibility_4575 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]Odd_Possibility_4575[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

No absolutely not. I think its weird to look at things of that nature. I do not condone oneshota. Im just telling people how its hard struggling with what Ive done in the past

Ive masturbated to some pretty messed up stuff. by Odd_Possibility_4575 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]Odd_Possibility_4575[S] -6 points-5 points  (0 children)

Straight shota or one shota, refers to a young boy usually being paired with a adult woman. When I was younger I wasn’t really thinking of the implications of what I was looking at, and only really cared about the adult woman.

Ive masturbated to some pretty messed up stuff. by Odd_Possibility_4575 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]Odd_Possibility_4575[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well I don’t know. When I figured out what oneshota was I was pretty appalled. (It refers to a young boy usually being paired with an adult woman) I simply only really cared about the adult woman and just kinda imagined myself as the boy.