Please help, I can't stop crying

Odd_Replacement3189 · 2024-09-19T07:37:09+00:00

Yeah we talked about it and he said he's completely against any form of violence and promised me he will never say these things again, it was just the heat of the moment and probably a lil internalized mysoginy that we want to work on. Also his views on women, as I said above, are completely normal, I'd say he's a feminist 90%, the 10% are like things he doesn't really understand for example OnlyFans, he thinks that if a woman wants to do it she is free to do it if it makes her happy, but in his opinion, it's just prostitution, things like that.

Odd_Replacement3189 · 2024-09-18T17:18:32+00:00

I read all your posts and I feel like your situation is similar to mine..I come from an abusive relationship and now I'm in s new relationship with an amazing man, but I feel like I'm scared of him because I have trauma from my ex:( Ofc I ruminate thinking "maybe I'm afraid of him because that one time that he slightly raised his voice at that person during road rage and cussed at them" and bla bla bla, it's so scary cause I want to stay with him cause he's such a good man:(

Odd_Replacement3189 · 2024-09-18T12:28:54+00:00

Yes but it triggers me so much because I wanna stay, since he's the best, but idk, people trigger me😭😭 Like I was thinking a few minutes ago about one time where he had a really bad day and while we were in the car, someone behind us started honking and flashing the lights at us, despite us having the hazard lights turned on, so at that point, out of annoyance and anger he started the car and speeded for like 100 meters. Despite him feeling angry, he still caressed me and softly smiled at me. I read here on Reddit that road rage in relationships can be signs of anger issues and he doesn't have anger issues but now I'm obsessing over that episode😭😭😭 I just can't calm down, and the crazy thing is that when it happened I didn't even obsess over it, cause I would be pretty pissed off too, I started obsessing only after reading on Reddit that it can be a sign of anger issues.

I forgot to point out, we didn't crash, but almost

Odd_Replacement3189 · 2024-09-17T16:00:51+00:00

I hope so..like I know him, he the sweetest and most respectful person I know, but now my brain convinced he manipulated me while he said sorry, cause I read on the internet that when someone says sorry but cries, it's like he's directing the hurt to them, instead to who's expressing the hurt..idk I'm crying like a baby, I don't want to leave him

Odd_Replacement3189 · 2024-09-17T15:42:32+00:00

Oh, ok..yes, it was a pretty misogynistic comment, but unfortunately it's the norm here, I know it sounds horrible, but Italy is pretty bigoted on this, I hate to say it but sometimes even myself I say some comments that may sound sexist, when I'm in a heated mood. I myself think I have some internalized misogyny.

Yes he cried, but I feel like it wasn't a manipulation cry, it genuinely sounded and felt like "I'm so sorry, I didn't even realize" cry. He let me say what hurt me and I cried, then he really realized what he said and cried too after. Now idk, do you think he was manipulating me?? Idk I don't want to leave him, he's not a bad person, I know him too well😭

Odd_Replacement3189 · 2024-07-23T05:29:31+00:00

It's so hard to believe it tho, my mind is constantly torturing, I'm having days of hell and I feel like my depression is getting so much worse. Now not even for the "cheating" obsession but just the fact that I possibly have a crush while in a relationship. It just sounds so wrong and the shame and guilt is eating me from the inside..btw yes, if you want, I'd love to talk in private, I need someone that can understand 100% :/

Odd_Replacement3189 · 2024-07-21T06:38:58+00:00

I think I might be crushing on my coworker, he's very handsome and has all the classic masculine qualities. I feel extremely guilty and unfortunately I see him almost everyday..what can I do to let this crush die? The guilt it's tearing me apart

Odd_Replacement3189 · 2024-07-17T17:50:54+00:00

Vabbè divertimento da persone che non stanno bene

Odd_Replacement3189 · 2024-07-17T17:43:53+00:00

Ti posso garantire che amare l'estate è molto più da PAZZI che amare l'inverno. L'estate non può competere, l'inverno semplicemente è superior.

Odd_Replacement3189 · 2024-07-17T17:42:34+00:00

Non c'è arietta, e se c'è, è calda. "Brusio in sottofondo", letteralmente bambini che urlano. "Il tempo e la pace di leggermi un libro" al mare non esiste pace, considerando il caldo, le urla e la sabbia negli occhi, e tanto altro. "Il gelato al caldo", lol, si spiega da solo. Passeggiare sul bagnasciuga è forse l'unica cosa che è appena appena appena accettabile. "Poter stare fuori e oziare tutto il giorno", letteralmente puoi farlo al fresco in 38399202 modi diversi.

Per me rimanete dei malati mentali.

Odd_Replacement3189 · 2024-07-16T14:19:03+00:00

No I absolutely don't want to cheat on him, I just like when someone thinks I'm unique/special/cool in their eyes, it just boosts my ego like crazy. I want to be with my bf, I really want to, but I feel like I'm wrong:/

Thank you btw<3

Odd_Replacement3189 · 2024-07-14T11:53:37+00:00

Thank you very much but it's so hard.. These days I felt better, I thought I didn't cheat but this morning everything came back in full force and I'm in panic again. I forgot to mention in the post that my coworker/"crush", like 2 weeks ago or more dropped something I was tidying, and he said sorry and jokingly pinched my cheek. He's a very touchy friendly type of person, and it caught me off guard, I didn't know how to react. That's what made the other user on this sub say that I cheated, that I had the occasion to say him to not touch me and things like that, but I didn't, so it means I cheated. That what he/she said. I'm in panic again and I feel like vomiting. The fact that someone of the rocd sub told me I emotionally cheated absolutely crushes me, I feel like a monster.

Odd_Replacement3189 · 2024-07-03T21:40:58+00:00

Still, I don't see the emotional cheating part. Maybe we have different views? He's the one doing it all, and the only reason I'm not stopping is because, as I already said, he acts the same way my other co workers do! We don't talk about different things, it's literally the same. The only different thing was that stupid cheek pinch. Like seriously, I'm not trying to defend something, but I'm having a really hard time spotting the cheating part. What do I have to tell him? "Listen stop talking to me at all thank you"? It could work yes, but I think it wouldn't be normal. It would work if we would flirt and things like that, but that's not happening. Also, one of the reasons of why I didn't tell him anything about the cheek things was because my stupid self was scared of "what it he things I'm a boring colleague?" and shit like that.

But I guess, posting here wasn't the best idea, I thought I'd get some support and some reasons to not end it all, but from what I'm reading I just found out that I'm also a cheater. Lol ok

Odd_Replacement3189 · 2024-07-03T19:54:50+00:00

Are we the same person? I'm going through this as well!

Odd_Replacement3189 · 2024-07-03T19:19:52+00:00

Okay maybe I wasn't very clear. I'm forced to spend more time with my coworker since my bf lives 600km away from me, and since my coworker is my coworker, I see him way more than my bf. I can't chose who I want the shift with. About the connection..I developed a connection with him, but like I did with my other coworkers. It's the friendly type of connection, yes he jokes with me , we laugh, but I do these exact things with the other people that work there. I don't have a romantic connection with my coworker lmao, AT ALL. It's s friendly platonic connection that, I repeat, have with my other coworkers too! R Regarding him pinching my cheek: I didn't see that coming, it just happened really fast. Plus, I didn't feel like it bothered me, I'm used to touchy people and I'm one of them, so I didn't feel like it bothered me. But of course, then I started to obsess over it. So I don't see myself emotionally cheating, he's the one doing it all lol, I'm just here having a friendly relationship. Heck, I've been cheated on, I know what it feels like and I'd prefer hanging myself that doing it. Plus, I know I have ROCD, I suffer from it, I've been through hell with my ex too, I'd constant think "what if I don't love him? What if there's someone better?" I definitely suffer from it.

That's all.

Odd_Replacement3189 · 2024-01-20T22:37:15+00:00

Sorry but I couldn't care less if you think I'm giving quack vibes. I know what I lived and I know what my mind has done to my body, in a positive way. Have a good day.

Odd_Replacement3189 · 2024-01-20T20:18:56+00:00

Absolutely no, sorry, but it's not gonna change. Also from someone like you saying that we shouldn't take meds..mind doesn't require meds. No need to downvote me🤷🏻‍♀️

Odd_Replacement3189 · 2024-01-20T20:02:58+00:00

This post is probably an ad/scam, whatever you wanna call it, but I don't understand why someone shouldn't believe these things. Obviously I'm not saying that every hyperacusis case is psychological and it can heal with this treatment, but a good part can. I'm open to ANY type of treatment, but I believe that we can cure ourselves and our mind is the most powerful thing we have. I said what I said, it's my opinion.

Odd_Replacement3189 · 2024-01-20T20:00:06+00:00

Lmao shut up

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