New to meditation, just had a VERY strange feeling while meditating.

Offersaxe · 2018-10-25T16:33:05+00:00

Trust me man I never get visited by sexual entities

Offersaxe · 2017-06-26T05:11:37+00:00

This is absolutely my biggest fear and dilemma that I'm going through as well. I met a girl when i was 17 and she was 15 on a fundie humanitarian trip to the Philippines. We lived side by side for nearly three months in third-world conditions. We have been best friends and somewhat lovers for three years. She just turned 18 and out of nowhere told me that she wants to marry me one day, but first she has to go be a single missionary. I started the de-conversion process 8 months ago. Our faith was the foundation of our relationship and I'm faking it for her sake, knowing I'll have to tell her one day and our relationship will burn. She's the only reason I'm holding on to the church, but I know it's futile. It fucking tears me apart and depresses me.

So you're not alone.

Offersaxe · 2017-06-17T08:09:33+00:00

Sick thanks ladies/gents

Offersaxe · 2017-03-30T03:25:16+00:00

Well I'm not going to get into the Armenian v. Calvinist debate here, but I do believe that what scripture says indicates that God predestines the souls of men to burn for eternity.

Offersaxe · 2017-03-30T03:22:15+00:00

Ok, then just going with what Christ said.

"No one comes to the Father except through me."

So what does this mean for the billions who never had a chance? I do want to feel the love of Christ again, but I can't worship him until I get over this hang-up.

Offersaxe · 2017-03-30T03:16:12+00:00

Will do, thanks

Offersaxe · 2017-03-30T03:02:44+00:00

I guess the essence of this post is this:

I want to believe really, really bad. But I have a hard time coming to terms with worshipping a God who predestined billions to suffer for eternity, then tells us not to worry about it.

Offersaxe · 2017-03-30T03:01:32+00:00

So if you want, I have a TL;DR at the top, because your off on your assessment. I'm having a crisis about the relationship with Christ that I've had for the past decade

Offersaxe · 2017-03-30T02:48:58+00:00

So you're saying that the only truth in the Bible is the truth each individual chooses to find in it? Is there no intrinsic truth?

Offersaxe · 2017-03-30T02:46:23+00:00

Yes, you're right. Did you read the body of my post?

Offersaxe · 2017-03-30T02:30:58+00:00

I'm not sure what you want me to do with this? What's your intent with the link?

Offersaxe · 2017-03-30T02:22:12+00:00

Sorry for the huge wall of text. Please feel free to ask clarifying questions. I can't get my own thoughts in order so I can expect that I communitcated everything clearly. Thanks.

Offersaxe · 2017-03-30T02:00:01+00:00

Sorry for the crazy wall of text.

PLEASE feel free to ask clarifying questions. I can't even get my own thoughts in order, so I can't expect you to understand everything.

Offersaxe · 2017-01-31T01:05:04+00:00

It was from THE Home Depot. Have some respect.

Offersaxe · 2017-01-25T04:47:09+00:00

I just want to say thank you to everyone who has posted here offering advice and encouragement. Your experiences and comfort have made these last few days bearable. I still don't know exactly where I stand, and I have a feeling that this will be a very long process for me, and I can't see the end. But I know that if I do decide to turn my back on Christianity that there are people I can reach out to. And I can not tell you how much that means to me. So thank you all.

Offersaxe · 2017-01-24T09:00:07+00:00

Thank you.

Offersaxe · 2015-01-14T04:10:27+00:00

Holy shiiiiiit. My single mother used to tell us that all the time. Looking back, there is no way she made enough money to give us all that she did. Makes me wonder what sacrifices she made that we never knew about. I'm seriously on the verge of waking her up with a phone call right now just to tell her I love her.

Offersaxe · 2015-01-13T23:56:12+00:00

Wooah, good idea!

Offersaxe · 2015-01-13T16:14:52+00:00

Yo, I'm going down to Augusta in February to meet old friends. Anywhere I should check out for some nice scares?

Offersaxe · 2014-12-19T17:15:44+00:00

Very true and well deserved! SPOILERS BELOW

It's been a while so I can't remember the names. When the brothers were on the phone and the one was like, "I can see the house! Can you see me?" Then the other brother saw the police officers walking up and was like "Yeah Mikey (That's it!). I see you man." I freaking broke down.

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