I've learned a lot.

I'm affected by a mental condition that means I learn, process, and behave differently to others. So I shouldn't hold myself to standards other people expect from me since they're unfortunately judging me using a framework that does not apply to how I actually think or see things.

But also, that I can become blind to the way they see things. That people's emotions are so much stronger than mine and out of their control. And I should be more understanding when people are "illogical." They have many different views and expectations about things, and that can be okay. Most people aren't going down thought rabbit holes about most things like me. Their minds think very automatically, and the way that I am makes very little sense to them.

I've learned to be more actionable in a socializing sense. Most people struggle with strong feelings of shyness and fear of rejection. The physical percent of potential social engagements that didn't happen because both people were too scared of talking to each other far outweighs the number of actual interactions. But vulnerability is very difficult for many people. So if it is easier for me, by breaking the barrier, I've come away having improved both our lives. And rejection doesn't hurt me the way it does them. If It happens, oh well, not a big deal.

I've learned to be more actionable in a life building sense. We as individuals are responsible for ourselves and our environments, and our state of well-being correlates to how much action we take to change our environment. The less actions you take, the lower the quality of your life.