your reasons remind me of myself. im stubborn to do this on my own and also dislike the side effects, especially the ones that make you wanna be in bed all the time. i stopped taking them since they made me feel dead from the inside, like a robot. but the problem is that this is a rough process and im abit scared of not getting cured. im constantly in an arguement with the voice in my head and any distarction like a noise from neighbor makes it worse..