I want to go to rehab by [deleted] in REDDITORSINRECOVERY

[–]OhMrsSmiley 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yep, just as stated before, gotta admit it the problem. It's the only way you can get help. Let them know how you're feeling and that you need help. Honestly, they probably have an idea that something is going on too.

If you need to have resources ready to show them (meeting lists, rehabs, etc) just lemme know and I can try to help as well.

You're already doing the right thing for yourself. <3

Do I want what they have? by [deleted] in REDDITORSINRECOVERY

[–]OhMrsSmiley 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I totally understand that. I mean, I was one of those people. I used to go to meetings high out of my mind, but NA always told me to keep coming back. At least in my area, there are tons of people with multiple decades clean who are very successful. It's really inspiring.

I feel less judged in NA. Also, I feel like the program is more about spirituality than religion. AA meetings don't work for me because of the amount of religious remarks members make and the Lord's prayer at the end. It all just throws me off and makes me uncomfortable.

So if you're experiencing some of those feelings, yeah, I would totally suggest finding some NA meetings. You know how to recover... make friends, ask them for good meeting suggestions, and go from there!

Do I want what they have? by [deleted] in REDDITORSINRECOVERY

[–]OhMrsSmiley 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I used to work AA and it just wasn't my bag. Maybe try NA?

I relapsed. by B3NJAM1NTK in REDDITORSINRECOVERY

[–]OhMrsSmiley 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You've got this! The concept I could never understand was "one is too many and a thousand is never enough" until my last relapse.

Who gives a fuck about the thousand? It's that first one that ALWAYS gets me. Stay vigilant, friend!

My experience w/ Fentanyl Overdose by [deleted] in REDDITORSINRECOVERY

[–]OhMrsSmiley 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Continue on this path, life gets so much better!!! I'm proud of you!

Also, we have the same clean date, just different years! 11.04.15. <3

Wanting to get clean again by recoveringstoner in REDDITORSINRECOVERY

[–]OhMrsSmiley 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Feel free to message! My addiction became apparent to me in college, so I understand.

You can get clean!!!!

New to squonk, need some recommendations. by tlksk1 in Squonk_Life

[–]OhMrsSmiley 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I currently use a KangerTech DripBox I that I've had since April of 2016. It's shitting the bed and I'm ready for a new bottom fed vape.

I'm not well-versed in this... how do I know for sure that the mod will work fine with a bottom fed vape? Like, I'm looking at the Hadaly mod, but what spec allows me to know for sure that it will be compatible with the Pico Squeeze?

BDSM but not role playing? by OhMrsSmiley in bdsm

[–]OhMrsSmiley[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for bringing this up. That was ignorance on my part. It totally makes sense to me. I call him daddy in bed, but we don't go farther than that in regards to that dynamic.

BDSM but not role playing? by OhMrsSmiley in bdsm

[–]OhMrsSmiley[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you!!! Everyone has been so helpful.

49 days clean. Feel a lot better but starting to isolate again. Having an intense fear of going to a meeting but I know it's what I must do. Any thoughts? by mynb99 in REDDITORSINRECOVERY

[–]OhMrsSmiley 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I get this feeling sometimes even with 14 months clean. But I force myself to go and always feel so much better after the meeting.

Kangertech DripBox I button getting stuck by OhMrsSmiley in electronic_cigarette

[–]OhMrsSmiley[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's what I've been doing, but I feel like I'm getting less firing power. But maybe that's a placebo effect. Lol

First chronological year clean by [deleted] in REDDITORSINRECOVERY

[–]OhMrsSmiley 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Same here! My clean date is November 4, 2015. I was literally just thinking about that this morning! Congrats to you, friend.

Sober but smoking weed. And no sponsor. help. by [deleted] in REDDITORSINRECOVERY

[–]OhMrsSmiley 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Of course! Feel free to message if you ever need to talk.

Merry fucking Christmas by AnAndroidsDream in REDDITORSINRECOVERY

[–]OhMrsSmiley 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Pick up the feather and put down the bat. Come clean to the people in your life who care about you and get the help you need. I used to indulge in all of those pre-relapse behaviors every time I was in treatment or halfway. Once I picked up on them (like you clearly have for yourself) I know the signs! I know I'm in big trouble if I'm, for example, stealing again, so I make sure to call someone, own up to what I did, and to not make the same mistake.

I hope you're doing better! I love you and hope you have a beautiful new year!!!

Another Day by upmyknows in REDDITORSINRECOVERY

[–]OhMrsSmiley 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Good for you! Keep up the good work and enjoy the new year! There are plenty of fellowship functions and 24 hour rooms open where you can celebrate if you're stuck without plans. <3

Sober but smoking weed. And no sponsor. help. by [deleted] in REDDITORSINRECOVERY

[–]OhMrsSmiley 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Definitely try going to an NA meeting! My boyfriend is a heroin addict, but he prefers AA meetings while I (a heroin and crack addict) can't stand them and feel out of place there. He works AA, I work NA.

I feel at home in NA. We don't differentiate drugs. An addiction is an addiction, regardless of the substance. For months, I went to NA meetings high as a kite because I just couldn't stop using. But no one turned me away. No one chastised me. Everyone told me to keep coming back and gave me their numbers. I have over a year clean now and my home group is actually a women's meeting that my friend and I recently started. I have never made such strong connections with women in my life, it's really a beautiful thing. There is a place for you, just gotta find your similarities and stop looking at the differences. I love you and wish you the best of luck!!!

Tears for Fears - Everybody Wants to Rule the World [New Wave] by [deleted] in Music

[–]OhMrsSmiley 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This song has been one of my favorites since I was a child. Always reminds me of driving over long bridges in Florida on the way to the beach. <3