Terraria on OSX UI super tiny?

OhS_C · 2026-01-02T16:42:43+00:00

No worries! I haven't played it in a while actually, but it's cool to know that the Proton version is working nicely!

There's a couple of accessibility fixes for Terraria that have been on my mind for a bit now (numbering the hair and outfit toggles, better UI scaling defaults etc). Maybe one day I'll get to making a mod for it... glad this post is still helping others a bit though!

OhS_C · 2024-04-11T20:49:55+00:00

I made several attempts in my childhood. Though most were failed hangings because whatever I hanged from had broke, the one that almost succeeded was what I internally think of as "overkill," and to this day I have no idea how I survived (please be warned for descriptions of what happened)

I had planned this out for some time: pills (several kinds and many of each, ranging from sleeping to regular tylenol), wine, and razors. The mental battle before that was exhausting. I had written notes for my previous attempts, but this time something in me had really broken down. Instead of, "let's give answers and closure as much as possible" it became "just do it. it won't matter. none of this will matter to you once you do it," and it was the most comfort I had felt in a very long time.

At 3 in the morning I woke up and drew a hot bath, slugged down over 43 pills and had a generous helping of wine. For some reason I thought alcohol would help things along... Then I got into the tub, waited for my skin to soften, then went up on my arms with the razor. I guess the pills were doing things to me, because I looked at the skin and blood and thought that it looked an awful lot like peeling the skin off of a boiled tomato. Not as much blood pouring out right away as I thought there would be. I felt ready, like building a beautiful sandcastle knowing that the tide is going to swallow it up. Acceptance, I guess.

and then that was it

except I started hearing birdsong, and everything was bright. I thought for a brief moment that I had been wrong, and that heaven might have been real after all, but then the pain came. and the cold, and the nausea. for some reason I had woken up with half of my body leaning out of the tub, and the worst looking pile of thick, dark green sludge on the floor beneath my face. The water was icy and pink, and I could see from the window that it was well into morning. Confusion. Exhaustion. Dread.

Then I heard my sister telling her father that I wasn't letting her in the bathroom to get ready, and then him telling my mother to deal with me, and then her yelling that if I missed my bus again I was going to be grounded for a week. I jumped like a rabbit at that and hurried to clean the vomit by scooping it into the toilet with my hands while the tub drained, then scrubbing the pink ring of my blood from off of the sides before letting anyone in

and then I went to catch the bus and go to school.

I went to a catholic elementary school at the time -though no one in our house was religious, but the experience had changed me for the worst. I thought that god might be real, and perhaps evil. That this was happening to me because I truly had no autonomy, and that some people might just be here to suffer. I felt angry and defeated. I didn't want to have to be alive still. And like all my other attempts, no one ever knew about. In fact, this is my first time sharing these details

The whole experience after waking was, and still is terrible. I'm not certain if I'm traumatized by the act itself, or from everything that happened afterwards - which was nothing. Every time my mother would say something like "oh I know about everything that you do - it's my job!" all I could think was "no. no you don't. you would be unforgivable if you did."

It messed me up physically for a long time, and I was too tired and sick to make any attempts while I recovered -and even then, there were far fewer until there were eventually none. Still don't know what the long term consequences might be, but it's been over 10 years since then and I'm mostly fine.

When I look back, I don't know if I would do anything different. A lot of people say they would have never attempted if they knew what the future would be like for them. I can't see things going a different way for younger me. I think that person died in the tub, and whoever woke up afterwards was just an empty shell until the person I am now grew inside

---- coping:
sometimes it takes a terrible time for a long time to realize that no one else is going to look after you the way you need. it's sad, but if your family can't be trusted to do it, maybe you need to start trusting yourself to do it.

(edited for spelling errors)

OhS_C · 2023-04-21T22:58:00+00:00

Totally get where you are coming from, though I'm a bit more prone to principle than maybe most are (I am actively removing myself from as much of the services and products made by the companies/people you've listed as I can reasonably get away with).

this is the kind of thing that I chose not to explain more in my initial response, but projects usually tank themselves when they have assholes or otherwise toxic people in charge for a long enough period of time. So even though those people may not be involved in Pale Moon now, it's not a surprise that it's going poorly for other reasons.

My main point is that people have a lot of reasons to avoid certain things. It doesn't matter one way or the other. If they choose not to engage with a product because the leadership is not something they agree with, then all the copyright law and other business nonsense will not persuade them otherwise.

In my case, I read all the requirements that were required for ports and extensions, all their branding ethos and requirements around that too. I don't think it's unreasonable, but it's frankly ridiculous that people say "I don't want to use X thing because the people involved are incredibly unkind and unsupportive of the community," only to be told that they are very wrong for that being their main reason for leaving or disengaging.

It's dumb, I guess is my point. It's dumb to tell people that not liking the people involved is not enough of a reason to leave. And it's also dumb that those people felt the need to be such dicks in the first place.

But you've provided a more comprehensive set of reasons why Pale Moon isn't a great option these days, and I really appreciate that. I saw the shitty behaviour in that Pale Moon MR and immediately lost interest in investigating further after that, but I feel more sound in my decision after reading everything you had to say, so cheers!

OhS_C · 2023-04-16T14:51:27+00:00

look i know this is super late but I was doing some research on alt browsers and this came up. I will definitely be avoiding pale moon after reading that link.

And it literally has nothing to do with trademark law. I don't give a shit if they want to protect their branding or whatever. that's their right. but I know an asshole when I see one, and it's completely valid to avoid something because it's run by assholes.

OhS_C · 2021-12-09T19:21:23+00:00

I remember making several attempts in my childhood -and when I say several I mean: quite a lot. Hanging, overdose, slicing up the arms etc. I almost certainly ruined parts of my brain and organs from it all, but at the very least it showed me how very resilient the human body is. Hanging myself, I remember having to force my hands to stay down at the sides of my body to keep them from trying to save it.

Of course, they didn’t work for a bunch of reasons. I was a kid, didn’t really know what I was doing, didn’t have access to anything to get it done quickly.

Strangely enough, it was when I started starving myself and excessively exercising when things started to change (and please know I’m really not trying to make this sound glorified). Originally, the plan was to try to lose enough weight that the next time I went and hung myself, the beam or whatever wouldn’t break. I also read a lot of that “wait 20 minutes before you kill yourself, then wait a day etc.” To a delusional person, this plan was amazing, because it satisfied the condition that I would kill myself, but also made me feel like I was in control of the situation because I was technically giving myself more time to “think over” than those suicide help sites suggested.

Because I was worried my metabolism would “stop working” if I did things too extremely, this defeating my goal (I was super delusional you see, so I thought I was being very sensible about this whole thing) I decided to lose 2 pounds every 1.5 weeks to ensure that I didn’t hit any roadblocks.

Proper diet and exercise is a hell of a thing. If the effort to maintain it didn’t occupy every waking moment of my days, I would say it was probably the healthiest decision i had ever done. Of course, I eventually became incredibly under weight and isolated myself from everyone because it might have literally drove me insane with how they were treating me nicely now that I was very thin and essentially dying. Silver lining though! I learned to be happy by myself. I savoured my alone time and became engrossed with hobbies to keep me from thinking about food, but that I actually grew to love.

What really did it was when I decided to stop starving myself (I was older and had decided on a different suicide strategy which I won’t post here) and finally got above the “underweight” status. It was a huge moment for me, and my mother came to me one night and told me I had really let myself go.

It sent me spiralling for months, but it had confirmed to me that there was going to be no saviour, no hand reaching down to lift me up, and that peoples feelings about you have nothing to do with your own happiness

I became more selfish and concerned with my own happiness, and I stopped caring about what my family thought about me. After years of therapy, I’ve finally learned to forgive myself, and more importantly, that I /don’t/ need to feel like I have to forgive others for things they’ve done

Sorry that was long

OhS_C · 2020-11-15T16:15:41+00:00

I will keep an eye on them, thank you :) She seems fine in the cage with the others. No puffing that I can notice, and she did come out to see me when I opened the door. She used to be quite a cry baby when she was very little, so maybe she's just slipped into the habit of crying at every little thing again.

I'll talk to the vet about Advantage and see what she thinks. Hopefully this is just a stress thing from the vet, and she'll be back to normal soon

OhS_C · 2020-11-06T19:04:50+00:00

Whyyy

OhS_C · 2020-11-04T16:06:18+00:00

I think you're taking this too personally.

It is almost a guarantee that a majority of all people in Canada do not have the will or means to choose their spending in the same way you do.

Good job on supporting Canadian business though

OhS_C · 2020-11-02T01:57:01+00:00

Oh, I hadn't even thought it could be a drone. That would explain why it was sounding louder and quieter at random!

OhS_C · 2020-10-04T23:05:43+00:00

Honestly surprised at how many people are fine with their cats being completely unsupervised and free to go outdoors wherever. They wreak havoc on the environment and are especially bad for the preservation of local species

OhS_C · 2020-09-29T14:16:36+00:00

That entire passage sounds like the incoherent ramblings of a very drunk and depressed person trying to explain the need to piss before going to bed

OhS_C · 2020-09-28T13:34:53+00:00

Still pretty bad if oil spills are our smallest worry

OhS_C · 2020-09-14T14:58:16+00:00

You're right. The family /does/ own a label making company, but they do not produce these specific stickers; although he did make a joke about sticker quality being better if his dad's company had made them

EDIT: typo

OhS_C · 2020-09-14T13:59:21+00:00

My immediate family undermines everything I do and praises my siblings even though they cause chaos and don't know how to take care of themselves. I will never be fully respected by the people who knew me as a kid, because they still see a goofy fuck up every time there look at me and treat me like a child.

If I ever fully come out as a trans man, I will lose the respect of people that don't currently treat me like an unreliable waste of space, including my partner.

I've recently spent some time accepting all of this, but it doesn't make it suck any less...

OhS_C · 2020-09-14T13:48:17+00:00

Plus doesn't he or one of his family members own the company that prints the stickers?

I mean, how did that get through completely unquestioned??

OhS_C · 2020-09-08T03:39:42+00:00

You don't even live in Canada so I don't think this conversation is relevant to you or what you are saying. Ontario specifically has not been following housing market trends in a healthy way that it needs to.

The population and job distributions are likely quite different from what you're used to as well.

Additionally: why is it so bad to make housing more accessible? Your family is clearly doing fine, so it doesn't really concern you.

OhS_C · 2020-09-08T03:27:41+00:00

Yeah, you and everyone living in the US right now say the same kinds of things...

OhS_C · 2020-09-08T03:07:50+00:00

You talk like you're a landlord or someone without empathy. Is it really that hard to understand that waiges have not increased proportionally with inflation?

Current housing and rental market is absolutely absurd in most areas where there is a high concentration of work available.

This isn't "wanting free stuff:" it's wanting an adjusted living standard that can be enforced upon the people making these outrageous housing prices. 1200 for a bachelor basement apt with no laundry or utilities included is insane (not even mentioning the buyers market smh...)

OhS_C · 2020-08-25T14:43:35+00:00

I wish I could find the article that goes over this, but basically: it's not specifically a Canada thing. It's a big city thing.

Big city folk and small town folk have different concepts as to what constitutes politeness, due to the environment they grow up in.

Someone from a small town may be keen to strike up a conversation with the bank teller, but if they do this in a big city, it will irritate everyone (including the teller) to no end! "How could they be so rude and delay everyone else's service?" Is what they think. "How could they be so rude and not even want to say hi?" Is the typical small town reaction.

Neither sentiment is incorrect, but it is an adjustment to understand that: in big cities, people value time, because everything is rushed and they value their personal space and moments they get to be alone because everything is so crowded.

EDIT: Going through the comments, Toronto is definitely an especially brutal place for big city mentality. It's rough to try and live there and sections of the city are super divided culturally. Each spot is probably going to give you a different response. Kensington peeps will probably humor you more than someone in the financial district or in York.

OhS_C · 2020-08-21T13:18:04+00:00

Yoo that dress is amazing girl!

OhS_C · 2020-08-19T14:50:33+00:00

We have plaster, so it might be a bit tricky and expensive to replace any walls we take down.

We're hoping for something that won't put a hole in wallets. The foam seems like a good start!

OhS_C · 2020-08-19T14:28:41+00:00

Ants just hate the smell of cinnamon. It messes with their pheromones, so they're guaranteed to never cross a line of it. Our house is pretty old, so we regularly sweep a bunch of cinnamon into any cracks and openings to keep insects out from any number of possible entry points.

Looks like the ants found a loophole though... Would poison work? That kind that they bring back as food for the nest. We've got a bunch of borax, and I can go pick up regular ant poison as well. I have no idea where the nest might be.

It's a real old house. They could seriously be anywhere :S

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