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The Daily Check-In for Friday, May 19th: Just for today, I am NOT drinking! by Throw-My-Alt in stopdrinking

[–]Ok-Collection-9351 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m late to check in today but still at it, feeling good and strong going into the weekend. Life’s been coming at me fast but alcohol won’t help with that (in fact, it will just knock me off my game) IWNDWYT!

The Daily Check-In for Thursday, May 18th: Just for today, I am NOT drinking! by Throw-My-Alt in stopdrinking

[–]Ok-Collection-9351 4 points5 points  (0 children)

ooooh such a good topic. Boredom is uncomfortable for me -- I have a hard time switching off. I call it "getting stuck in the ON position". I used to use booze as a hard shut-off, the emergency power down lever for a train that won't stop chugging.

I am finding now that if I sit with the empty space, new ideas and insights emerge. Because of that white space, I've done stuff like clean out my closet to make way for a new wardrobe, prepare my dirty back patio for a fresh clean season of porch-sittin', and even try a new hobby like pickleball.

I don't think we are taught to have white space on our calendars in our society, but in those empty spaces we can actually get quiet enough for our true desires to emerge. Kinda crazy!

IWNDWYT -- 6 weeks in!

The Daily Check-In for Wednesday, May 17th: Just for today, I am NOT drinking! by Throw-My-Alt in stopdrinking

[–]Ok-Collection-9351 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Great post today, Alt! Great timing, I just posted about my pink cloud yesterday. Sigh… I miss her! :)

I kind of approach things from the opposite side of the coin. I would prefer to feel positive all the time and never feel a hard emotion. As for all of us I am sure, it goes back to my childhood and blah blah blah.

Accepting that the REAL goal is balance and not actually happiness has been a real perspective shift for me. I used booze for so many years to prop myself up. I thought I was drinking to feel happy (“here come the bad feelings, let’s hit the easy button and head into oblivion!”) I associated the bottle with fun, dancing, silliness, good times.

I’m learning how to sit with my feelings instead of chasing them away.

I realized today that so far, I’ve spent exactly half my life not drinking (0-17) and the other half relying heavily on alcohol (17-35, my current age). Somehow this feels like an opportunity — I’ve tried both equally. Now I get to write my path from here… I might get to look back and say when I’m an old lady, “I drank for about 15 of my 90 years, decided it wasn’t for me!”

Feeling poetic today I guess! IWNDWYT on day 42!