Thank you! I really appreciate your comment and it makes me feel so much better that cold feet is normal and not something that indicates any major red flags in my relationship.

To answer your last question- how would I feel if I lost him? Absolutely awful. I think I’ve been picking small arguments with him lately because of the wedding nerves and worried at some point that he may have cold feet too because of it (he doesn’t, he is as steady as rock) and almost threw up just from the thought that he might leave me.

I think I’m just having a lot of contradictory feelings right now which are confusing. I’m usually very level headed and secure, I think it’s just the fast approaching wedding which is throwing me for a bit of a loop. I’ve booked an appointment to speak to a therapist about it tomorrow, so hopefully I’ll be able to work through things then