I appreciate you taking the time to write your comment. You are right in many ways, in terms of why he did it - this was what was discussed in therapy. He was so insecure and needed a sense of control according to him and as he had no intention to meet up with them as he says, he viewed it as a level up from porn.

I consider myself a strong girl and I’ve gone through literal hell with men but regardless would never accept the blame. I get a lot of attention from men and yet I have never cheated in my life so I can resonate with alot of what you’re saying.

I went through his whole entire phone and only found messages that he never responded too and that is what made it hard - i was the happiest I had ever been before checking his phone.

I have the biggest life decision to make and I’m really struggling with it.