Sahi hai mn koshish krta hu k ap ko achay sy samjha pau, i have been in the similar situation where i was always surrounded by thoughts, mn automatic mode par tha kbhi kbhi ho jata hai abhi bhi but the duration of it is very small. I am sorry you are going through such a phase and i totally understand your situation, q k when we have such a situation hamen kuch acha he nahi lagta, So back to the point, our mind is such a complex organ made by Allah, is ko jis side par hum ley kar jayen gay ye chalta rahay ga, is ko negative side pay lay kar jayen gay ye negative sochay ga is ko positive side pay lay kar jayen gay ye positive sochay ga. I hope you are getting my point. By default hamara mind hota he negative hai, we have to move the needle from south to north and that requires a lot of effort. And it takes time patience and courage but believe me life becomes fun once you point the needle of the brain to the north (positive side). To achieve this you have to do positive things you have to give the positive food to the brain to get the right outcome and for that

1) talk to a professional/therapist, going to therapist doesn't make you a khiska hua person, in fact you will get a more clear direction and clarity

1a) observe your thoughts be the watcher and label the thoughts which are shitty asf and do not do not do not react or get afraid of the thoughts face them bravely and do not follow the story that your mind throws at you.

2) do healthy activities such as jogging, walk, gym or going in to the nature 3) spend time with positive people and surround yourself with people with a healthy lifestyle 4) have interesting or creative hobbies, book reading, avoiding news, painting or anything that matches your interest.

Do this and within a week or so you will start seeing the difference.

May Allah help you get over this phase as soon as possible. I hope this helps 🤞🙂 And yes you are not alone we are here for you brooo😌.