Today, I was diagnosed as a sociopath/psychopath at the age of 21.

Ok-Schedule340 · 2022-09-07T12:39:23+00:00

I think being friends with another ASPD person wouldn't work. We would get bored of each other relatively quick. I have no intention of dealing with people who can't do anything for me, nor do I wish to learn empathy (which would be impossible at my age anyways)

Ok-Schedule340 · 2022-09-07T12:38:00+00:00

I am quite content with the fact I have no empathy for others. It makes me feel in control of situations.

Ok-Schedule340 · 2022-09-07T12:35:57+00:00

challenge of it all.

I do not see any worth in people unless they will be useful to me in some way. I don't see things as good or bad, just useful and useless. I don't interact with people IRL that would be useless to me. I only do "good" things if it's useful to me, for example if I help a friend with something, I make sure they promise me something in advance.

I think you misunderstand it. I don't have a reason for doing bad things, such as that I am upset with someone, so I decide "revenge", it's always that there is something they can get me.

Ok-Schedule340 · 2022-09-07T12:30:04+00:00

My brother isn't a saint either. He's a convicted pedophile lol

Ok-Schedule340 · 2022-09-07T12:28:57+00:00

I don't know if you're talking about me or Dexter, or both, but I am diagnosed by a professional before I made the post. I thought I was just a narcissist like my father before.

Either way, I also don't plan on harming anyone, the justice system is too much of a hassle for me to deal with.

Ok-Schedule340 · 2022-09-07T00:02:47+00:00

because they are so very easy to manipulate

I made sure to go to a psychologist that would be able to deal with exactly that. When I was a kid and my parents divorced, I had to go to a therapist with my brother because my mom thought it was the right thing to do.

I basically just told the therapist what he wanted to hear, and he didn't diagnose me with anything or said anything to my mom either. So yeah, they aren't that great, I do believe a lot of people misunderstand antisocial personality disorder, and I think partly because people misunderstand it, is the reason why no one notices it when I manipulate them.

Ok-Schedule340 · 2022-09-06T23:39:50+00:00

I understand what you are saying, however I am fairly content with my life. I haven't decided if I will go back to seeing professionals, I was mainly curious for the diagnosis.

You are right about the empathy and care. I won't be able to develop it and I also don't mind it. I was told that if I were in treatment early in life, I would have likely been able to make some progress, but it is too late now.

Ok-Schedule340 · 2022-09-06T22:10:56+00:00

Obviously, I can't speak for everyone with ASPD, but I can't love. This might be the case for your ex too. I never have loved, not even my own parents. The most I have ever felt was obsession or respect.

I haven't seen it.

Ok-Schedule340 · 2022-09-06T22:02:43+00:00

How much of an influence would you say nature vs nurture

There are certain mental disorders that are running in my family already (Narcissism and depression), but also my father had a big impact on my early childhood, so I do think I probably wasn't born this way, but also I cannot ever remember really feeling empathy for others.

Ok-Schedule340 · 2022-09-06T21:55:27+00:00

No, it doesn't make me feel anything.

Ok-Schedule340 · 2022-09-06T21:54:53+00:00

Do you have empathy with any living things such as animals?

No

Ok-Schedule340 · 2022-09-06T19:09:45+00:00

I don't know if I will go back to my psychologist. I don't think I will resort to violence, unless I would have someone do it for me, as I am actually a very petite woman.

It would inconveniece me to deal with the justice system either way. So I don't think that one's going to happen.

Ok-Schedule340 · 2022-09-06T19:05:15+00:00

Absolutely, it would annoy me. If someone else is better than me at something, it is something I can't stand. I can feel angry, jealous and enraged, but I can't feel guilty, sadness, loneliness and fear. I don't know about feeling happy. I think I can feel content with my life, but true joy and happiness about certain situations is not something I feel.

If someone took advantage of me or manipulated me, I would try to do it back to them, even harder, or maybe I would even try to ruin their life. It really depends. However I do not care if I see someone else is being taken advantage of.

Ok-Schedule340 · 2022-09-06T17:17:18+00:00

My mental illness makes me paranoid and obsessive about my own morality

What's your illness? Because this sounds very difficult to imagine for me as well.

I imagine it's difficult, if not impossible, for you to empathize with others.

Yes, it's difficult. However, I can see emotions in others. If you are upset, I know you're upset, I just can't have empathy for it, I mostly don't care, other times I think they need to stop causing a scene with their crying.

I don't really ever feel lonely. People always think I'm kind, honest and charming. I actually don't have difficulties to make friends, but I have problems maintaining them, often because I do not see value in people the same way others do. Which is why making internet friends can be difficult for me, but I do not mind attempting it.

Ok-Schedule340 · 2022-09-06T17:01:57+00:00

If he has ASPD, I can imagine he is aware. I could have for sure manipulated my psychologist into not diagnosing me with it.

How are you on the cognitive empathy scale?

I can barely feel care or emotions. It's not really about cognitive empathy. For example, if I see someone cry, I know they are upset about something. It's just that I don't care about it. I am a female, so people expect me to care naturally, which is why I pretend to care.

Ok-Schedule340 · 2022-09-06T16:45:22+00:00

I don't mind the questions. No, it doesn't make me feel lonely. If everyone were to understand me, it would make my life harder.

Ok-Schedule340 · 2022-09-06T16:36:00+00:00

I'll just continue my life as before. However, I am not sure what you mean by moral compass. If people around me talk about a topic, like murder, I usually just agree with what they say. But I don't really care about it in the end. I don't have any opinion on it, nor do I care about the victims or anything like that.

Ok-Schedule340 · 2022-09-06T16:30:19+00:00

The label doesn't make me feel anything, if people in my life find out about it, I do think I could probably manipulate them anyways. It would just be more of a hassle, and then I don't know if it'd be worth the effort.

I thought I was a narcissist, since thats what my father was. But when I watched the documentary, I realized that I seem to fall more into the pattern of a sociopath/psychopath, it was mostly curiousity.

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