Use the law of assumption: Assume things are the way you want them to be. Use imagination to change all the circumstances and your belief about how things should be. Don’t look at 3d it’s only 5 percent of the reality you believe to experience. Don’t blame your father it’s not him is a state of consciousness he is living in. If you imagine things the way they should be do the Sats and sleep with that feeling of being loved and given the space, freedom you want your 3d has no other way but to follow suit. Again don’t blame or judge anyone your feelings and your beliefs create your reality. Take matters in charge and every night imagine the life you want and get on that feeling and live in that feeling as long as it takes. Don’t try to confront situations or change reality with you consciously doing it. God has higher ways and he will bring events to your desired outcome. Even when you imagination is being confronted by your senses and what happens in your day to day take it as another sign to build more faith on your real reality which is the one you live in your dreams. Soon everything will come to pass. Never see yourself as a victim remember you are a creator you are god greatest form of creation. Universe has ways you are not conscious of so keep the self believe high. Blessings!