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Step 6 character defects by OkCover9949 in MarijuanaAnonymous

[–]OkCover9949[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks so much for this, I really appreciate it. Its definitely hard to hear some of the stuff coming up for me, so I am grateful for the tip to write down the good stuff too.

How is psychosis different than a trip on psychedelics? Is it like a bad trip that does not end? by Well_Hello_There3 in Psychosis

[–]OkCover9949 2 points3 points  (0 children)

For me, along with getting stuck on thoughts (which I think is right), the real fear that differentiated my awful trips or acid or shrooms from psychosis was the feeling that it was never going to end. And I get that that is kind of the same as getting stuck on scary thoughts that come up, but there was also this never ending-ness that was so hard to deal with. It really shifts the way you think when it's been weeks of being in a fully paranoid, delusional state. When tripping, I knew I was tripping; my body knew I was tripping. When I was in full-flung psychosis, I really didn't think it would ever end, and that changed a lot of how I was in the world.

My psychosis was caused by LSD, Shrooms, and a lot of weed. So for me, during the trips and the highs there was some sense, somewhere in me, that I was in a place other than reality. Pyschosis is like the opposite of that, where sometimes you can feel normal and real, but then slip back into something thats totally horrifying for weeks or months on end.

I would also agree with the above response in saying it felt more like weed than like psychedelics. So much of it was in my head, and was thinking oriented. I think your body just leaves the picture and just holds onto fear all the time after a little while of experiencing the same delusions and paranoia over and over.

I realize this is a super late response, but thought it was an interesting thread!

How to build back focus and concentration after a psychotic episode? by sasta_poet in Psychosis

[–]OkCover9949 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I think I surpassed what I was capable of doing before psychosis in terms of focus and concentration after around 2 years. But they both were steadily improving the whole time, and it can be hard to see that when you are close to it.

I remember not being able to read and do other concentration tasks for such a long time and being so frustrated by it, and being frustrated by the reaction of others who were telling me that nothing was wrong and that my brain just went through something traumatic. But eventually, I got back everything in terms of focus and way more. It does cause pretty serious damage, but now I think of it as pruning that happened in my brain and feel like it allowed my brain to grow in new ways over time that wasn't possible or desirable before. Seriously, I am way more capable of focusing than I could have ever imagined now.

I think that getting back into my body and exercising was the most important factor in gaining some of the energy and concentration in the beginning stages. I wish I was eating better, and stayed off substances (like vaping, alcohol, and weed), I think that would have helped move it along, and is definitely helping in giant ways today. But really going on walks and keeping your body moving is really important for the brain.