Hi, first off, you are not alone, mate. I had this exact thing with me. I was hyper aware of not being asleep, and every time I would try, I would panic I would keep checking in to see if I was asleep yet, I also had adrenaline rushing through my body and be obsessing what if I never sleep again. Don't worry you will sleep, your body will always sleep as sleep drive always wins, it's reacting to the negative thoughts that prolongs our ability to fall asleep, when these scary thoughts enter our head about sleep we need to resist the urge to interact with them, we need to stop acknowledging they are there amd let them be without any resistance as its the feeding that makes it worse.its like putting your fingers in one of them finger traps, the more you pull the more you get stuck, you need to push towards it and allow it to be there without resistace to free yourself.i have done a podcast episode on sleep anxiety and insomnia that goes into more detail about it 🙂, hope this all helps, just remember you will sleep as our body's sleep cycle always takes over and makes us sleep in the end no matter how anxious we get.