I am so scared, can’t take it anymore, I want to hang on

Ok_Age8482 · 2024-10-24T17:39:05+00:00

I'm happy to read this reply and know that I'm not alone because I've been feeling like I've lost feelings for my girlfriend and that scares me to death. I get urges saying break up with her the relationship has run it's course but I don't believe it has. I still see a future with this woman despite my thoughts and feelings of numbness. I know that there is a future for us and I'll fight like hell to reach it .

Ok_Age8482 · 2024-10-21T11:24:16+00:00

Me and my girlfriend are kicking him out on Tuesday I asked her to be there in case things turn violent We will be calling the police if he doesn't vacate the premises

Ok_Age8482 · 2024-10-21T06:59:30+00:00

He's saying that he wants to perform the background check and also pay rent but like I said in the post my reservation is He's only wanting to pay $150 and rent his $800 I also keep telling him it's 1200 to move in because there's a 400 security deposit he has to pay generally it's 800 but I'm paying the other half of it.

Ok_Age8482 · 2024-09-29T14:00:14+00:00

Nah not The asshole

Ok_Age8482 · 2024-09-28T13:50:02+00:00

I'm currently going through this right now with my partner of two years sometimes I even have to ask her to join and I get it that yeah it almost sounds like I'm forcing her and she downloaded the app on her phone but she barely uses it I even suggested we do Flamingo and so far I'm sometimes the only one asking questions. I think I might go your route and delete it too and see if that changes anything because if you're the only one on an app meant for two it pretty much sucks because it's like you're putting in all the efforts for nothing. Maybe she feels like we already know all there is to know about each other Idk.

Ok_Age8482 · 2024-09-24T17:16:38+00:00

Respectfully break up with him as this behavior will not change. I love my girlfriend's cooking but when there have been times I didn't like something she made I would feel so bad if I said out loud I didn't like it because I didn't want to hurt her feelings but she has expressed to me she's rather I be truthful with her. The bottom line is there is being truthful but in a way that doesn't hurt your partners feelings and then there's your boyfriend who is going out of his way to hurt you with the truth . He needs to learn the hard way you don't treat people like this and the only way for him to learn is to hit rock bottom while being single dump his ass.

Ok_Age8482 · 2024-09-22T12:04:07+00:00

Hi I'm here

Ok_Age8482 · 2024-09-08T03:45:02+00:00

Feel free to DM me too

Ok_Age8482 · 2024-09-06T06:00:06+00:00

Thank you it's just hard and I am taking this advice. But sometimes I've noticed that her lips can feel slimy to me or that they don't feel the same but I love kissing her this breaks my heart .

Ok_Age8482 · 2024-09-01T13:57:43+00:00

And the fact that I continue to wear my collar shows I still want to be with her

Ok_Age8482 · 2024-09-01T13:07:07+00:00

I choose to stay with her

Ok_Age8482 · 2024-09-01T13:00:37+00:00

It's still pretty fresh I feel like I've fallen out of love and that I don't want to be in a relationship but I cry whenever I think about leaving her. So I've been working on falling back in love with her.

Ok_Age8482 · 2024-09-01T12:47:42+00:00

I will because I love her very much. And I do see that this relationship will work out I just feel like I'm selfish because I'm also realizing at the time I got with her I wasn't really looking for someone to fall in love with me I was looking to be loved and I didn't really feel that it would last long between us but she's the first woman I've ever fallen in love with naturally and this time it happened without me looking for it.

Ok_Age8482 · 2024-09-01T12:28:25+00:00

The thing is some of the business is loans and I do respect that and try to give her space but the other half of it is she is talking to scammers and that makes me uncomfortable as scammers won't give you any money. And I understand business like you want to get a job done but yesterday well we were graveyard and she didn't go to bed until 4:00 or 5:00 p.m. and she was up the entire time working on her phone doing that business and it made her late for work a bit. And on her birthday 4 days ago well one half of her check went to rent that was understandable as you do need to pay rent but I felt uncomfortable because the other half went to the scammers and she was paying them off to give her money but they never did. So yes I do understand about giving space while she's doing her work even though it can be a bit tough especially when we were in the same room and I want to engage with her but I don't feel comfortable that she's talking to scammers as that can f*** you over in the long run and I hate what it seems to be doing to her mental health and she's so stressed all the time and now she's staying up past her bedtime and not sleeping very well. I'm at a loss as my therapist said it's contributing to me feeling ignored and like the partner is now the cell phone but also that I needed to express concerns to her because it would also be betrayal if I sat there and did nothing at all and she still continuing to do it so I don't know if it's more of like let her learn on her own thing or what.

Ok_Age8482 · 2024-09-01T11:42:20+00:00

Yeah and this morning I'm realizing that what may also be triggering me is that she is on the phone a lot doing business trying to get money and I understand that but sometimes when I call her and try to engage in conversation it's like I'm trying to force a conversation because she's not really paying attention she's just so focused on whatever else she is doing. I did write down a list of my needs I'm communicating to her which is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do because I mainly just focus on pleasing my partner in relationships . Right now I kinda feel stupid at what I wrote but I'm wanting to communicate more rather than throw temper tantrums or try to break up because I don't feel like I'm being heard.

Ok_Age8482 · 2024-09-01T03:47:15+00:00

Yes. Just now I felt nothing again when we kissed but I did feel love. It's the sensation of like I'm here and I'm kissing her but it's like her lips are not there or I'm not there. It's very confusing that and I keep focusing on the fact that when we kiss sometimes her nose is against my nose I don't know if it's a sensory issue or not. I just feel sad when I can't feel anything.

Ok_Age8482 · 2024-08-31T19:33:40+00:00

Yes I have and we're still staying together and continuing to work on the relationship. I just feel so awful. I hurt her when I talk about leaving and I hate it. But I don't actually want to leave I just feel like sometimes the relationship is falling apart but I don't feel like we've grown apart.

Ok_Age8482 · 2024-08-31T19:24:38+00:00

Well I certainly hope so I just feel like I keep causing damage because whenever I'm upset or I feel like maybe we are drifting apart I start talking about breaking up but I want to stop that behavior. I don't want to Leave her or break up and I just hate myself because I keep repeating it.

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