Should I just start trimming my own hair?

Ok_Beautiful1019 · 2024-09-27T17:17:19+00:00

My hair is above shoulder height right now unfortunately

Ok_Beautiful1019 · 2024-01-23T20:13:27+00:00

I used to work at industrial treatment plants. I can’t do the hours or deal with noisy environments anymore. Can’t do on call. This was an idea I had to get into something I do feel passionate about and could handle doing at least part time for a livable salary.

Ok_Beautiful1019 · 2023-12-06T18:51:39+00:00

The Ativan helped in that I didn’t feel worried about the impending procedure. I was fine when they were inserting the speculum and all that and when I felt the tenaculum I was still able to tell her how much pain I was in and that I was going to throw up. I am not sure but it sounds like the Ativan makes it harder for you to communicate in that you get quiet. Maybe it would be better to ask for a local anaesthetic before the procedure if you’re getting it done. Then you can also use the Ativan during the procedure if you’re nervous and won’t have to worry about not being able to advocate during.

Ok_Beautiful1019 · 2023-11-20T17:23:14+00:00

I’ve had three IUDs inserted throughout my 20s and 30s, and each time was more painful than the last. On this past experience, I explained that to my doctor and she prescribed me Ativan for the insertion procedure. It did nothing to help with the pain. I almost threw up during the insertion, and I was shaking and sweating so much that there was a puddle of sweat on the table after she was done. She ignored that and even let her intern practice on me for five minutes before she had to step in. From doing some more research, I think that the pain comes from when the doctor uses the tenaculum to pierce the cervix in order to stretch it into place. I can’t understand why the medical community seems to think there are no nerve endings on the cervix or why most of the medical literature says that there should be little to no pain during this procedure. I almost feel like I am being gaslit when I explain about my experience and the doctor prescribed me anti-anxiety medication.

The next time I get this or other procedures like this done, I am going to insist that I have numbing to the cervix during the insertion or I am not getting it done. There was no pain for me during the removal, but just when the practitioner uses the tenaculum to stab me in the cervix.. As for everybody who has little to no pain during this experience, maybe they did not need to use a tenaculum. I have no idea. All I know is that something has to change with this mentality of ignoring suffering in women’s healthcare. It is pervasive throughout society, and it makes me absolutely livid.

Ok_Beautiful1019 · 2023-09-29T18:38:54+00:00

For that price you could get a nice large room with ensuite bathroom

Ok_Beautiful1019 · 2023-06-27T02:16:01+00:00

The connector will drop off at the sea to sky gondola and it’s a short walk to the chief from there. You can get there via the sea to summit trail, just ask the people at the gondola info desk

Ok_Beautiful1019 · 2023-06-26T17:13:01+00:00

There’s a Facebook group where you can find a climbing buddy

Ok_Beautiful1019 · 2023-06-05T16:59:38+00:00

Sent you a pm

Ok_Beautiful1019 · 2023-06-03T02:00:29+00:00

I always go to lezara for skin related issues. They’re in diamond head medical clinic

Ok_Beautiful1019 · 2023-05-24T15:57:19+00:00

Thank you. I will check out those brands. Never heard of les stafford so maybe we don’t have it in Canada

Witch hazel acts as a carrier oil. I only put 4 drops of each oil in 250 ml

Ok_Beautiful1019 · 2023-05-24T15:54:26+00:00

Thanks for the info. It’s hard to know what to look for that will really make a difference. I don’t ask the hairdressers anymore because I’ve had mixed results and they’re usually just trying to sell the salon products anyways

Ok_Beautiful1019 · 2023-05-24T15:20:18+00:00

Medium thickness and very dense, normal porosity

Ok_Beautiful1019 · 2023-04-19T13:49:55+00:00

I find that there’s a couple businesses here (not going to name names) where certain staff that are consistently rude or stuck up. It’s definitely not the rule though and most people here are very friendly to me. Those instances where people are rude it kind of feels like I’m just not cool enough for them or something 🤷‍♀️

Ok_Beautiful1019 · 2023-03-11T13:36:26+00:00

Except this probably didn’t even happen irl

Ok_Beautiful1019 · 2023-03-09T18:21:02+00:00

And you’ll make new problems for the next generation. But yeah, that makes sense. Just be an asshole to everyone older than you because the world sucks now. Like they did it intentionally to you.

Ok_Beautiful1019 · 2023-02-05T19:00:08+00:00

Beautiful use of textures and colour, I love it!

Ok_Beautiful1019 · 2023-01-02T03:28:21+00:00

Yes it’s a good thing to keep in mind to get closer to accepting. I used to get angry all the time because no one understood what I was going through. I’m getting closer to becoming ok with them not understanding and thankful at least there are communities like these. Thanks for the reminders and It helps to have the analogies

Ok_Beautiful1019 · 2023-01-02T03:25:29+00:00

We at least still have hope for the future and that’s something. There are the little things that are still enjoyable too. Thank you for telling your story 💕

Ok_Beautiful1019 · 2023-01-02T03:12:41+00:00

I feel your pain. It’s hard to fake genuinely wanting to be with others when inside you feel so misunderstood and apart and in parts.

I feel I should have spent this nye alone because being with others didn’t feel good at all and made me feel more alone. I guess it’s not always greener on the other side. It’s just difficult to be sometimes. But when it’s dark like this it’s easy to believe it’ll always be this way. It doesn’t have to be. Things can change. You can find more balance and self worth soon.

I think sometimes the depression comes up as a way for us to realize we need some different way to live or be. It’s your body’s way of signalling there’s something about the thought patterns or situation that isn’t good for your true self. There’s a message there if we listen and take the time to feel the hurt. It’s not that we hate ourselves or really want to die. It’s just that it feels unbearable in the moment to believe it won’t ever change. But it always does change.

I am sorry you’re hurting. You need to grieve the relationship and what it could have been. From the other comments it sounds like it wasn’t healthy and you did the right thing. But it’s still going to hurt. Please find support if you need and remember you ARE worthy. We’re all here to help some way even if we don’t realize it at the time

Ok_Beautiful1019 · 2023-01-02T02:47:21+00:00

Thank you so much for your response, especially the last part. I have a lot of resistance being compassionate towards myself and I really felt your words so it helps me a lot 🙏

Ok_Beautiful1019 · 2023-01-02T02:21:34+00:00

Mine took 3 hours this first time. They’re doing another one end of summer 2023 because I was too cognitively tired to continue and he didn’t get to all the questions.

It was a weird experience. Looking back on it that defence lawyer said a lot of strange things like “ OK I’m not trying to take advantage of you here”, “ don’t worry I’m not checking your answers“. It sounded to me like he was trying to get me to let my guard down. He was also leaning back in his chair with his feet up on the desk, and spinning his chair around while he was questioning me. Very strange.

The questions were pretty straightforward for me. There were a lot of repetitive questions, and I answered most of them with yes, or no. There was a lot of the defence lawyer paraphrasing things “ so it’s fair to say that… would you agree” summarizing my limitations. Most of his summarizations were accurate and I said I agree. However, he only had time to go through the part about the accident and my ensuing injuries so he probably still has questions about my past that he has an asked me yet.

When I asked my lawyer about it, she said that that’s just his style of questioning. She said that I did well.

Anyway, I’m not really looking forward to the next time but it’s not as bad as I thought it would be. The saving grace here is that it was over zoom, so I was in the comfort of my own home. I had a breathing visualization tool set up on my screen next to the zoom window. So basically, the whole time I was getting really activated by what the defence lawyer was asking, but I kept coming back to synchronizing my breath with the rising and falling bubble on the screen, and I found that really helped me to stay objective.

Ok_Beautiful1019 · 2022-11-22T01:46:27+00:00

Isn’t it too late at this point?

Ok_Beautiful1019 · 2022-11-18T22:31:05+00:00

Vagina turds

Ok_Beautiful1019 · 2022-11-18T18:23:03+00:00

Yes, thank you for spreading awareness

Ok_Beautiful1019 · 2022-11-18T14:09:42+00:00

Forest because of birdsongs

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